do tou have any form of like.. analysis for anything in house!! i love analysis posts or even just when people spill out a take for anything or how theh viewed something.. id love to hear!!
i had trouble thinking of what to write for this so i think iāll use it to finally go stream-of-consciousness about The Kraken
(ā¬ļø most autistic image of her btw. #loner)
to clarify this isnāt an āamber is autisticā post. i am very aware that sheās not, i just want to put forth some traits i see in her & relate to as an autistic person. donāt take this as canon, donāt vaguepost me, and ESPECIALLY donāt pull the āYouāre Attributing Regular Human Behaviour To Autism, Not Everyone Has To Be Autistic!ā bullshit because i am NOT in the mood. this is my self indulgence post and if you disagree then please letās talk about it Nicely in the comments of the post as god intended.
more points. itās 5am and iām lazy so weāre going sourceless, iām taking for granted that you have a good enough grasp of the source material and autism to understand what iām talking about when i reference specific canon events & symptoms of high-masking autism. iām also largely talking about fellowship amber because i like her, and i wonāt cover everything here because thereās a lot!!! here is a summary of my thoughts & some traits in no specific order.
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ā hangups on fairness.
obviously amber doesnāt play fair in the competition, but her rule-breaking never Actively goes against the Overarching Rules house has set about the competition. the car wash & dog collar stunts are two examples; itās her way of eliminating the competition from within, but she never Forces her targets to leave. in a similar way, she doesnāt seem to begrudge cole or brennan for their tactics, nor does she hesitate in getting cuddyās thong in an underhand way.
her issues arise when the Win Condition ITSELF is changedā when kutner changes his number, and when terzi suddenly takes a spotā and BOTH instances make her mad, because itās not Fair. itās not FAIR that kutner just gets to come back, and itās not FAIR that terzi gets a free pass. THATāS why she gets so hung up on both.
ā social ineptitude.
amber is BLUNT as FUCK.
āoh, but nick!ā i hear you cry, āamber doesnāt count because sheās rude on purpose!ā. and yes, this is true Sometimesā with thirteen, for example, she is Obviously acting cruel on purposeā but there are several instances where sheās around people sheās trying to please and she actively brown-noses them so much that it actively makes them dislike her.
i mentioned it in this post which has explicit quotesā particularly noting the cuddy & cameron onesā but she also does it to chase once, and house Several Times. and yes, i know what youāre thinkingā you absolutely CAN put this down to neurotypical social messupsā but that brings me toā¦
ā ācutthroat bitchā as a mask
gets its own section. amber has that speech mid-s4 about always having to choose between love and respect, which itself is a very autistic sentiment (the idea that Being Yourself means people will inherently perceive you as lesserā hello?!?!?!).
it also, however, brings up the idea of āCutthroat Bitchā being The Method By Which Amber Gets That Respectā āif you want to win, you want cutthroatā or whatever she says. because if you canāt naturally garner love from people through her personalityā which, well, seems like itās not her strong suitā then the other option is being so good you garner respect instead.
amber is not an inherently cruel personā cruelty is a means to an end for her to reap the benefits a normal person would get from social aptitude and kindness. which leads nicely ontoā¦
ā āif they donāt like you, you gotta be right, or youāre not worth anything.ā
like house, she is laser-focused on Winning and Being Right. her one-track mind and black-and-white views on patients (which are both traits, btw!!!) are literally what get her fired. sheās also generally stubborn and competitive (see; Her Whole Thing, but the whole kutner betting thing comes to mind).
she is So focused on winning that getting fired genuinely makes her burst into tears. and sure, you can argue that sheās just sensitive, but⦠is she??? because it definitely feels more like frustration in the context; she did everything right, she even acted Suitably House-ian, and then got nerfed for the same logical one-track mind that hinged her own worth as a human being on her success in the fellowship competition.
DONāT MISINTERPRET ME. i am NOT saying she shouldnāt have been firedā house had EVERY REASON to fire her. what i am saying is that, in the context of the previous point re; ācutthroat bitchā being a means to an end, amberās firing serves as a proof that being Right and Independent and Betterā something that she relied upon as a substitute for Loveā was Never Enough on its own. she cannot be liked OR respected, she is chopped AND unc, yadda yadda yadda.
ā safety in control
kind of unrelated to the previous points, since it concerns wamber-amber⦠and i will admit, this is more of a Theory or one of those highly fantastical watsonian points where the doylist explanation is undoubtedly āthe writers didnāt care enough to think about her character like thatā. but wilson-relationship-era amberā aka, amber after having the Curse Broken and being Healed By Loveā is the one looking after wilson. she puts his feelings before her own, she takes care of him⦠hell, she even takes care of house in the events leading up to houseās head.
i think the idea of her being autistic would offer a good explanation for thisā because amber likes to Be Right, as demonstratedā likes to Know The Score, to have some kind of objective metric to make herself feel Worth Something (which sheās just lost on account of being fired). wilson, in all of his needy glory, perfectly provides that for herā because he NEEDS someone to be gentle with him, and who can Fight for him like amber does. his weakness/willingness to let her take the reins gives her a kind of control & safety in the romance which she is in desperate need of after the sheer Lack Of It she was left with at the end of the fellowship competition.
*in spite of my personal dislike of the ship, i am quite biased towards this interpretation, because Amber Benefitting From Wamber By Wilson Allowing Her Control is quite possibly the only way i have found to read the romantic relationship between them as Mutually Beneficial. it also offers a deeper reason for amberās upset re; the water bed thingā because the foundations of the relationship are actively disturbed by wilson NOT trusting and relying upon her. i hope iām explaining this clearly because i donāt know how else to phrase it in a way that makes senseā but tldr; control makes her feel safe and wanted, so wilsonās neediness lets her feel secure or whatever
ā random miscellaneous points
sheās not very good with hiding her expressions. taub telling her āshiksas are for practiceā & amber (slight delayed reaction time) going 𤢠is one example. Surprised Pikachu Face amber is another. her smile when terzi is fired and her elation whenever she solves a case, her Abject Disgust when kutner checks her out⦠sheās generally just a goofball. iām too lazy to get these gifs so this is a #trustmebro situation
in the rare moments she does actively try to connect in a vulnerable way, she is awkwardā her blurting out āi hate thirteen!ā in an attempt to please house is crazy. thereās also this scene, which is kind of giving I-Love-How-You-Can-See-Quackityās-Emotions-On-His-Face Memeā itās literally just her trying to butter up thirteenā but her body language here vs how little of a fuck thirteen gives DOES fry me, so i WILL gif it:
she doesnt care girlā¦ā¦. girl ur doing too much⦠im sorryā¦ā¦.
she generally Goes Places Most Self-Respecting People Wouldnāt Go for the jobā you could put it down to competitiveness, but iām making a case for social disregard. would you go commando for a job? would you climb through the window of an oncologistās office MID-MEETING??? WOULD YOU BRING COFFEE AND DONUTS FOR AN APPOINTMENT TO DIG UP A GRAVE?!?!?!?!
& a point for high-intelligence but low common sense/social perceptionā letting a smoking addict alone in a room with an oxygen tank. NOT HER FINEST MOMENT!!!
sorry that this was so rambly and probably ooc!!! i had fun writing it though. like i said before if you have any harsh criticisms please either phrase them nicely or keep them to yourself (i am normally up for debate but iām kind of sensitive to this one so please be nice to me <\3).
there is also def more iām not thinking about rn so if u have any additional thoughts feel free to leave them. i am very normal about amber volakis can you tell??? i like amber volakis a normal amount

















