#viktor mentioned

This resulted in 5 distancing from them since they're "not my friends anymore", and "I don't even know them anymore". And from then on, he resented the idea of merging, and that damned "Joe 1" for being so Goddamn happy. What's he all smiley about, he thought. The fucker.

But at least he still had his school. His empty, ghost town of a school. He quickly realized he couldn't live alone in that so he started staying in a tiny apartment, which quickly became a mess because of his plummeting self-worth. If only he'd just gone with everyone else, this could've been avoided, he also thought. It's his punishment for going against the grain. Being different. Maybe even "defective". Well shit, let's be defective. Why not.

He would have his code and model changed so that his hair would grow naturally. Somewhere in his reasons for this was needing to feel responsible for something, so he wouldn't completely fall apart. And maybe having it would make him feel better, whether about himself, in general, or both. He recalled that he considered asking his player about it in the past, but never got the nerve. Better late than never, he tried to rationalize. That's what people say to forgive themselves, right?

But the shoulder-length he requested (and wavy to boot, he didn't realize he had that...) spiraled out of control and now reaches his waist. Of course he couldn't keep up the end of the deal he put upon himself. It really needs the trim, but he couldn't be assed to try, and it disgusts him. The only good thing was how it never tangled. Game magic shit or whatever. But regardless of that, he looked like a cryptid, and he felt like one too.

At this point, his only comforts was TV, eating, and sleeping. He didn't need to do the last two obviously, but it gave him something to do, a distraction. When he ate, he could focus on the taste and nothing else. When he slept, he would stop being able to drown in his thoughts, welcomed instead into nothingness. When he watched TV, it numbed him enough to stop caring.

But even in his lowest moments, he refused to give in to his old addiction of... That. Diving back into it would truly mean the end had come. He'd rather be tortured to the brink before he had a sip again. Even now. Especially now.

He rarely ever left the apartment, kept the lights off, curtains to the balcony closed, and didn't allow visitors. He rarely ever left his bed, in fact. Sometimes he'd lie there and daydream about leaving. To where? Who knows. But this place was so painful to live in because everyone else has it great and he's got nothing so it's like... Just leave. But where?

He'd ponder it. Maybe just go out that tunnel and see where the Internet busses take him. Leave it up to fate. Maybe he'll find a nice little NeoCities domain. That whole area's so fuckin' large, there had to be a place where even 5, a worthless piece of shit, could fit right in! Yeah...

But he never gets out of bed. Out of the apartment. To the entrance tunnel. To the bus stop. To NeoCities. He just lies there, thinking about it. And nothing happens.

One day, he realized he was running out of food. The only reason he'd ever leave his trash heap of an apartment. By this point it was a matter of looking presentable enough to go out into that bright, colorful, vapid world crafted by that... Uh, mask man, and his spooky associates. Or keep staring at the dump that is 5's living space and contemplate if he could live without the sensation of eating. He still had his two other trusty vices, is it okay to lose one?

But, fuck. He loved the instant noodles. The frozen meals. The rice cups he could drizzle a little soy onto. And all the other kinds of convenient, packaged stuff. Goddammit.

So, he stepped around the trash, and next he knew, he was out the door. Fine. Fine. Fine! He'll get so much, he'll never have to come out again!

But as soon as he was outside the building, hair almost encasing his torso like a shroud, something shifted. Today's the day he's going to leave. Yeah. He'll get this done, pack up, make a pitstop to Vincent's or whatever pretentious name that supernatural son of a bitch had, flip off the gaudy building, then head straight for the tunnel. If he had time, he might even egg that fucking place!

This is it! God, it'd been so long since he was excited. Genuinely excited. He wanted to hold onto this forever.

Mood improved, he carried on with his mission. He ignored the other shoppers, checking off everything he picked up from his list. It was one of his first lessons here, because how could anyone remember everything they needed? He sure couldn't.

Things were going fine, until... He bumps into someone. Baldina. And she single-handedly became the craziest thing to happen to him.

He barely recalled the conversation, but it led to her hiring him as an assistant at her school, despite his clear lack of qualifications. It seemed that like Mr. Strobe-bow-skis, she too had plenty of people under her thumb, in numerous positions. A whole network of them.

One of which, 5 got to meet while struggling pitifully with the coffee machine, just seconds away from having a breakdown right then and there. This guy called himself, er, "I'm never"? But one word. Okay sure whatever. And in spite of 5's threatening tones and verbiage, Imnever was patient enough to show him how to use the brewer. Even informed him of how Baldina takes her coffee.

So what's Imnever's story? Oh, he teaches art here. He's more of an animator by trade, but this suited him just fine. Huh. Well, still more impressive than anything 5's ever accomplished.

The three of them became friends. He wasn't sure how that was possible, but finally he had a reason to go outside more often, instead of stewing in his own suffering for weeks at a time. In fact, slowly that poor excuse of an apartment turned into something a little more decent. It wasn't super tidy, but if Imnever, Baldina, or both wanted to visit, finally 5 could and would allow it.

It got to a point where, one morning, they surprised him with a present. A motorcycle. Apparently the two had taken his daydreaming musings seriously, about how cool it would be to have one. Also, 5 had forgotten what day it was - his birthday.

He cried. He couldn't possibly accept this. He didn't know how to ride it. He'd ruin it or hurt someone. All the classic, self-depreciating excuses he was told he was using.

But, as Imnever said, what you don't know, you fear. Once you do, you don't. Frankly that sounded confusing, and yet, these types of phrases helped him get this far, so... Just accept the damn thing.

The helmet was really cool, but he had so much hair that it wouldn't be able to fit. At long last, he got the trim he had desperately needed; up to just below the shoulders. But Baldina did it for him. Almost ironic, but at this point, who cares?

He forgot how light his head felt after the excess was cut down. It was a nice feeling.

Once he actually tried to overcome that fear of failure and took the chance to learn something, he was surprisingly quick on the uptake. And before long, he was zooming down streets in that badass chopper of his.

Maybe the Webspace isn't actually so horrible. But, thinking that, he reminisced about that day, where he was so sure he was gonna leave this domain behind and start over somewhere else. He slowed to a stop in front of Infinite School or something like that. Hm...

And he gave that treacherous high-rise building the bird, laughing manically as he drove onward. Of course he was going to stick around nowadays, but it still felt right to do. And boy was it worth it.

Spawn a GIF of a spinning 3D cow and say "Check this out! I could stare at it all day..."

-- Sprint into a room and cause a low-quality GIF of an explosion the size of his height to appear (WITH sound), which does nothing to the surroundings

-- Computer images/symbols. An error message if he doesn't understand, a buffering GIF if he's processing information, a BSOD if something blows his mind, etc

-- Summon a greenscreen

-- Show a visualization of his model file and pan around as he sees fit

Crash a car into someone's lawn whilst rolling over 18 times, and then the damage is non-existent as soon as the joke ends

Warp his model in humorous ways, like giant eyes, head shrinking, stretching an arm to reach for something, become a marketable plushie (he squeaks), and so on

-- Chug a bottle of alcohol at the rate of Plus Baldis eating an apple and feel nothing (he only gets drunk if he wants to)

-- Ragdoll and fling himself at things

-- T-pose and speen

Be a living soundboard

And then? His ensemble can do this too. All of them. It's a shared trait among(st) his copy.

He also does stand up comedy, but obviously his routines are mainly visual. Wacky shit.

But like I said, that's just one facet.

When situations are more serious, he knows to shut it off. And sometimes he does it just to chill for a while. Can't be a hyperactive goober 24/7. What's he like then? Still a pretty cheerful guy, but he will take others to heart and speak earnestly, politely if he can.

He's well aware of Joe 5, and understands that things between them are pretty damn bad. It's hard to put things under the bridge when Joey basically stole his friends in a way. And so, he's patient with him, amidst his endless vitriol. And he cares about him a lot, as a fellow Joe.

Another thing worth mentioning is: So why is Joey seemingly fine with being a joke? Because, he believes, every single one of them are. They all stemmed from Baldi, who is a parody horror (even Viktor. Oh, especially Viktor). By lineage and/or coincidence, every BBAU is, by definition, a joke.

And since that's the case, jokes ought to stick together, and bring joy to each other whenever they can. At the end of the day, they are just silly little games, cast off to the World Wide Web. If they miss the point, that's unfortunate, but that's the way it goes sometimes.

Indeed, Joey is very strange in appearing to be more well-adjusted than what may be expected - very left-field, if not out-of-character completely. The truth is, his situation is rare. The sequential Joes who came to the Webspace after him each bore varying degrees of personal troubles. One of them was even really good at masking it from their player and entourage.

Synchronizing with them was more challenging than other game types. There would be periods after the fact where the new additional Joe would still exist alongside Joey. Try to influence him. Try to keep closed off to him. Not truly, completely fusing and thinking as one.

And with each merge, it took various methods to help them settle in. Talking through their issues. Finding out what they're afraid of him knowing about. And for the most unruly one, threaten to have him "kicked out", although Joey wasn't sure if that was possible, but he'd sure as Hell try to figure it out!

He's seen their pain. Their anxieties. Their shame. Their rage. Promising to never tell anyone unless it's fine to, promising that it'll be okay, promising that he won't judge them, promising to not hold it against them. And when they let go, he grows a little more aware, a little more humble, a little more understanding.

And a little more motivated to make other people's day just a bit brighter. Why, if Joey could make 5 smile, or even laugh (genuinely, not mockingly)... Well, that would be amazing.