i saw a psychiatrist today for the first time in…three years, i think? she’s definitely much nicer than my old psychiatrist, who was quite possibly the most judgmental person i’ve ever met. she decided to start me on viibryd, so i’m probably going to be taking my first dose of that tomorrow (i want to wait until i don’t have work for a couple days in case of side effects).
i always feel like the second i tell a doctor “i’ve been suicidal in the past and sometimes still am” or “sometimes my anxiety is so bad that i hit or scratch myself”, they just go “ah, i see, suicidality and self harm, this is clearly just depression and nothing else matters until the depression is fixed”, so i’m hoping this actually helps with the things i went in for and isn’t just more of that. i was very careful about only saying i was there for anxiety and not bringing up depression right off the bat to try to avoid the issue, but the fact that she ended up prescribing a med that’s specifically only proven to help major depressive disorder is making me nervous.
i guess we’ll see how it goes. maybe once the results of my neuropsych evaluation are in and i can give them to her, we’ll be able to target my specific issues better (especially getting on adhd meds…god knows i need them bad), but in the meantime i’m just hoping for the best. i’ve seen a lot of people say that the first few days/weeks on viibryd can be rough as far as side effects go so i’m just trying to prepare myself.
