#vickysays

Okay just a short sum up of how my life has been since I left the fandom. If you wanna read, I mean ...

First thing first, I left Denmark after graduation. I traveled to France - Paris, Italia - Venice and Rome, Germany - Berlin. It was wonderful. Nothing more to say, I think you guys can imagine how the trip was. All those famous cities; Paris was (of course) spectacular. 

Then I flew home. Got a job. It has been great. Nice job, understanding bosses, lovely co-workers. I actually just got back from a company trip to Taiwan (4 days and 3 nights). Full of excitement and fun. Taiwan is a cool city. Except the food which I find a bit not as tasty as Vietnamese food, everything else is worth trying.

In the beginning of October, I flew to Singapore for BIGBANG concert. I got less than a week to prepare for the trip. Haha talking about spontaneous. I was in a group chat with my two baaaaad bestfriends when they decided that we should all go to the concert. Decisions made at midnight. Seriously I should consider my choice of friends. They bought the tickets, booked the flight and set it all up. I was so stressed. I always have trips planned at least two months ahead. But when I was at the concert, I finally understood the meaning of ‘once in a lifetime’. I had fun. Really. That was beyond great. No words can do it justice. Didn’t get to see Tabi though. He had conflicted schedules.

Okay. Love life. Hmmmmmmm. Sorry I got no big news to tell you. Lily is getting married though. I don’t know if any of you know Lily; her url used to be something kai and doscope. Quite famous at the time I was still active. One of those senpais. Lily must be the most gorgeous bride ever. Back to my love life. I actually have stuff to tell but again it’s nothing much because I don’t even know what it is. Haha. I just know that I like him a lot. A lot. And a lot. Always want the best for him. I think you guys all know, the feeling when you see something interesting or beautiful, you want to share it with someone? That’s it. That’s how I feel about him. “I can show you the world, shining, shimmering, splendid.” Aladdin had it. Yup. I really care about him. He is my co-worker but under a different team. Don’t let him tell anyone about us since I don’t like gossips. Sometimes when I know he had to stay late for work, I would put food in the fridge for him. Texted him, “Pudding in the fridge,” or, “Got you cherries.” We hang out sometimes, maybe often. Movies. Coffee. Chat until morning. He is shy. So gorgeous. So adorable. So loveable. So worth everything in the world. Sometimes I think I like him with every fibre of my being. He drunk-texted me, guys. He is particularly cute when he got alcohol in his blood. Bad, bad, bad. Told me he has never been in any relationship before. Yeah, right. “You are way too cute to have never been in a relationship until now. I don’t believe you.” I told him so without thinking that much. Later on my friend told me that was flirting on point. Hahahaha got me laughing to tears. The last time we hang out, I just listened to him talking. I think even God doesn’t know why I never get bored just gazing at him. That night when I got home, he texted, “Must be boring listening to me talking.” but I was honest, “It’s not about how interesting your stories would be. It’s about you. I would listen to everything you wanna say. Because it is you.” I’m not even sure if I would get a happy ending but I just wanna shower him with love. Love and love and love. And love. Just wanna discreetly make him develop the habit of having me in his life so that he would miss me to death when I am not around. Wish me luck, guys. I need it.

Last night I thought about this url, if I should give it away since you can see that I don’t blog often about EXO anymore. Honestly saying, exolutely is me. After all this time, it became not just a url but my identity on Tumblr. That is why if I change exolutely to another url, it wouldn’t feel right. I wouldn’t feel right. So I hope you guys understand why I am and will always be exolutely on Tumblr. I know 2016 has been a shit year for the K-pop fandom in general. Sorry about that. You guys will get over it soon. Better things would come!

In a conclusion, I am happy. I hope everyone is doing well with their life as well. Remember that you can always change things and choose to be happy. If there is anything that troubles you, you can come and talk to me. I might not be able to give you the right answer, but I would listen to anything you have to say. I know most of the time, people just need someone who would truthfully listen without judging.

I don’t think life as a fangirl is suitable for me anymore. I have to prioritize a lot of things now that I am 23 years old. If you noticed, you would be able to see the lack of my edits and new posts of EXO on exolutely recently. I have been considering leaving since the beginning of 2015 and now, when I finally graduated from university, this decision is officially made. Every sideblogs of which I am the owner (e.g. pornbaek) would be password-protected; exolutely would be left open.

To my followers, thank you for all the memories. I hope each and every single one of you would always be happy and caring towards each other. Remember that no matter who we support, we are still one big family; we are K-pop fans. Let’s all be cool, understanding, generous and respectful. Don’t let jealousy and hatred taint the love and dedication you have for your favorite group(s). Love the boys with a warm heart but think with a cool head. Please make the fandom become a title any of the fans could be proud of and respected by even non-fans.

To everyone who used to put exolutely or any of my sideblogs in your Follow Forever, thank you. I wish I could be able to express my gratitude better, but I couldn’t do anything more than just saying thank you.

To my one and only little blog exolutely, I love you. You were my heaven, my shelter, my comfort, my pride and my wild youth. I’m sorry that I cannot stay with you anymore, but I will always love you and keep you safe in my heart.