Jun 15, 2019
crushing on a monogam boy makes me feel so bad bc as much as i love him i cant go anywhere with that relationship hhh
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crushing on a monogam boy makes me feel so bad bc as much as i love him i cant go anywhere with that relationship hhh
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i literally cant go to tge lgbt center where i live bc its been overrun by tucutes and if i even start talking about dysphoria i get yelled at like wgat the fuck??
me: has [xyz] diagnosed by multiple therapists n shit
me at 3 am: what if even tho ive had every symptom since early childhood, im faking it
do yr hyperfixations evr turn out REALLY problematic and then suddenly u feel like yr not allowed to like them now that you know somethin about them bc like :( i really REALLY loved matpat for YEARS and now i saw a buncha shit hes done and i feel like i cant watch his videos anymore :((((
me: kin
some absolute poser: uh actually kin doesnt mean you heavily rl8 2 smthn
me: ok bitch try again kin
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I want to murder whoever figured "you guys" is perfect for the 2nd person plural pronoun. why why why just fucking make it stop please
saw a post that was something along the lines of "we need more sapphic omegaverse books"
and like not to yuck anyone's yum (I too enjoy some abo dynamics (mainly the animal behavior traits such as scenting and stuff (i may or may not be therian who the fuck knows))), but like it kinda just makes me really sad.
like you know what would be really nice to see represented more in sapphic stories?
trans women.
just like actual trans women.
it sucks so much to see people asking for this fantasy of a girl with a dick. and it's just so uncanny, this character with a similar body but still completely... off.
but when there's an actual woman with a penis they call her a predator.
idk maybe it's not that deep but it just makes me sad. I wish more people would consider that we exist.
(and yes I know some trans women don't have dicks (I'm desperately trying to get my own surgery) but like the point is that there are many that do, we exist and we are real)
I guess the reason this keeps happening is because it's the only time I'm forced to be completely alone with my thoughts, y'know, with no phone or music or stories or video games to keep me distracted.
And so I think about things. And I don't like thinking about things, not this kind of thing, anyway, but it's all right there in the forefront of my mind with nothing to block it out anymore.
I will just accept that tonight is not meant to be a good night. But I will have hope that tomorrrow might be better.
We're going to a party at a lake tomorrow. I'm going to swim again, like I've been longing to do since December when I learned how to swim. I just got a swimsuit finally and I really liked it.
Only now I'm just scared. What if everyone hates me? I know that's super unlikely since we all get along fine at work, but I've never spent time with any of them for fun before. I'm not a fun person to be around. At work I'm fine, but I don't know why anyone would want to spend time with me outside of that. Sure, I can smile, and I can laugh, and I can love, and I can have fun, but I also carry this darkness with me everywhere, and everyone can feel it, but no one knows what it is. I know, and I hate it. I hate it so much.
Maybe it's the shadows that haunt me at night. The knowledge that things will never change, that I will never be better, that I am cursed to be THIS forevermore.
Maybe it's just me.