(vent) im so tired of having to be a functioning person. there are issues upon issues in my head, from exotrauma and regular trauma to a host of other mental health problems, and im supposed to be functional. and no matter how hard i try i still fuck it up. every time i think ive gotten it down a little better theres 28 other things that i get yelled at about. at what point do I get a break? Never? why is everyone else's issues treated with compassion and empathy and mine are just annoying character flaws? or am i just running out of grace because i need more than people can give?? i hate feeling like this, like every new mistake is the one that will lose me the life i tried so hard to build into something better. i cant remember the last time my mental health was taken seriously and I don't have anyone i can talk to about it without worrying I'm going to burden them or be annoying or make things worse because i cant think the right way. i wanna be someone who doesn't have to struggle through every day
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