God i hate my body so much and my mom just makes it worse everyday i wish i could just kill myself
Hey… I’m really sorry it feels like this right now.
That kind of feeling, where you are stuck in your own body and everything about it feels wrong, is so heavy to carry. And when it’s not just coming from inside, but also from someone close to you, over and over again… it can start to sink in deeper than you want it to. Of course it’s affecting you. Anyone in that position would struggle.
It’s not just “a bad thought” you can switch off. It builds slowly, from repetition, from hurt, from being made to feel like you are not enough in your own skin. So it makes sense that it feels intense, and real, and hard to escape from.
And the part where it makes you feel like you don’t want to be here anymore… that’s really serious, and it tells me how overwhelmed you are, not that you actually don’t matter or shouldn’t be here. It means you have been pushed past what you can comfortably hold on your own.
You don’t have to suddenly love your body. That’s too big of a jump from where you are right now. Maybe just aim for a little less harm toward yourself, even if it’s small. Like pausing when the thoughts get harsh, or distracting yourself for a bit when it starts spiraling, or choosing something that makes your body feel a tiny bit more comfortable rather than judged.
And with your mom… if you can, it’s okay to create small boundaries, even quiet ones. Stepping away, changing the topic, putting space between you and those comments when possible. You don’t have to absorb everything that’s said to you.
If there’s anyone at all who feels even a little safer to be around, it might help to not be completely alone in this. You deserve some kind of support that doesn’t make things worse.
I’m really glad you said something. I know it feels unbearable right now, but feelings like this can shift, even if slowly. You don’t have to figure everything out tonight.
Just stay for now, please 🤍
Even this moment, as intense as it feels, doesn’t have to decide everything for you. You are allowed to take it minute by minute if that’s all you can do.
If the thoughts get louder, try to ground yourself in something simple and real around you. Something you can see, touch, or hear. Not to “fix” everything, just to give your mind a small break.
You don’t have to win against these feelings. You just have to get through them. And getting through them, even quietly, even imperfectly, still counts.
You are allowed to exist without being at war with yourself every second. Even if it only happens in small moments at first.
Stay a little longer.It will all be okay eventually🤍