#vent adjacent

you can argue to me that ace people are not really queer and that transmascs are not as oppressed as transfem or that transfem are not as oppressed as transmascs or that hypervisibility and hyperinvisibility are not equally issues or that nonbinary people are just confused and that aromantic allosexual people are predators or that xenogenders give trans people a bad look or that this or that is a slur and this group can't say it and this other group can or that pronouns mean gender or that gender means transition goals or that multigender or genderfluid people should pick a side or that men aren't really oppressed so they can't talk about it or that intersex people are not oppressed for being queer or that ASAB language is not a replacement for a gender binary or that TMA/TME is an accurate descriptor of oppression for hours.

I started writing whump and making whump characters as a way to process some stuff in my life, I won’t go into details. The situation has basically subsided/I’ve been feeling better about it all etc. But like ik that Sera and the Our Angel story is like only a thing because of this situation. And like I want to continue to write as use Our Angel as Botha creative outlet and a way to process other stuff in my life but I feel like really guilty ig for like having the entire characters and story solely based off a specific situation and now that it’s not like as big of a deal that I just continue if that makes sense.

Idk I’ve been feeling very off recently in general not pertaining to this situation so maybe my mind is just trying to find something to overthink and bother me idk.

I’ve spent the last hour trying to learn how to whistle and I got annoyed

.. so now I have a bunch of bruises because I started beating myself with a baseball bat because I was pissed

I currently want to rip my flesh apart, but I’ll just take a nap

as an intersex system, our feelings on gender are complicated and upsetting, to put it mildly.