" uh huh. i know. i'm not lookin' to start any big conversation. just somethin' you ought'a know. and i'm not gonna let you make me feel weird 'bout telling you i care about you. â now, you gonna watch old movies with me, or what? "
           That has always been an issue. Feelings of any kind, no matter how reciprocated they might be, falling flat because Dean feels obligated. He doesnât say âI love youâ the last time he said that was to his mother right before she died. Itâs just not- he doesnât- itâs not what he does. Life and death situations? With Sam? Maybe. That can be decided on a case by case basis but just in general? No.Â
             And because his experience has always been âI say it now you have to say it backâ he expected the same from Benny. What he gets is astronomically different. This isnât baiting. Dean knows Benny and that just wasnât his style. None of this really was. How like him to just get it off his chest and move on. Heâd done the same with Castiel back in purgatory hadnât he? Vetting him as to why the angel left Dean in the first place, totally unprompted. Then he wanted an answer but there hadnât been anything leading to it. It seemed to Dean that Benny does what he wants and a man like that doesnât expect an answer to a big thing like this.Â
              âYou gonna talk through the whole thing or actually let me watch? I want to watch Streetcar again, I like the bit about the shoes.â And while he might not say anything Deanâs body language speaks for itself. Heâs closer. His heart rate has evened out. Cheeks a bit flushed. Heâs comfortable. Relaxed. And yeah, sure, maybe heâs in love.Â
