Jun 19
I hate history... But if you tell me the whole history of vampires I'd be so happy listening for some reason. Maybe I'm just yearning for what it could have bee like, or maybe human history is too boring for my immortal soul.
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I hate history... But if you tell me the whole history of vampires I'd be so happy listening for some reason. Maybe I'm just yearning for what it could have bee like, or maybe human history is too boring for my immortal soul.
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hi fellow vampire here, I was a vampire in my past life, but I can’t remember anything other than some familiarities. Like it feels like I’m feeling around a pitch black room for needles in haystacks or smthn. Anyway, imma copy and paste what I wrong in a gc cause I don’t wanna rewrite it:
Hey, does anyone have tips on remembering past lives n stuff other than past life regression and dream journaling? I have this weird dilemma where I know I was a vampire in my past life like so strongly and I even know some of my former abilities and I know I had a significant other and a friend group (possibly all significant others? Idk, idk if I’m poly or not) I tried past life regression and all it felt like was my brain making something up and it didn’t feel right, like, I have this weird ability of sorts when it comes to story telling or something where I’m able to like ‘tap into’ a specific universe and it just naturally comes to me and it feels right and the feeling of rightness to the story is how I know I’m accessing this story. I didn’t get that feeling when I did plr. I know strongly that it’s there but it feels like it’s gone. I also think I figured out why I feel so fucking lonely despite having family and friends etc. It’s cause I haven’t encountered people from my past yet and I don’t even know if the people around me are real cause they don’t feel real? Idk, sorry for the rant
as for the people not feeling real part, it feels like there’s a disconnect between them and existing. Like I know that I exist, but how can I tell if they exist too or are just philosophical zombies? Hence they don’t feel real.
I am kinda starting to wonder if I got trapped here and like ik it sounds crazy, but yea, like some sort of matrix thing maybe
sorry for the rant lol
Hii!!! First of all, just want to say that I find really funny that. People are using me as an advice and mentor, like, you can totally do it, I don't really mind, but remember that despite everything, I'm not totally sure about what I'm doing!!! None of us is. Each experience is different, so we can't be 100% sure what will help others. The only ways I have gotten to remember past lives (because I don't really research them a lot) is interacting with the community and stuff that reminds me of my identities and stuff. Liiikeee, if I interact with the angelkin community enough, I'll remember what it felt like to be an angel, if I interact with stuff that was related to The Deity I worshipped, I will also remember angelkin past memories. Due to me not really trying to research on my past lives, that's the only advice I got, my bad, my bad. Though if anyone has a lot of memories of their past lifes I think this vampire would appreciate a lot the advice!!! Thooough, remember that you can have amazing new experiences in this World too, and meet amazing new people too!! It might feel like you can't in this moment, but all of us totally can. You can yearn about not finding your past life's group, but remember, you can experience and meet new people here too. You can also simply choose to always be with your past life's group, which is also an option, but it seems like you're not considering the other one of being happy with other people!!! For the people not feeling real part, I'd recommend you to search about derealization, depersonalization, anddddd psychotic episodes. I'm not sure if you're experiencing any of those since I don't know how the feelings are projecting on your mind, what thoughts you have, if you see anything, etcetera, etcetera. But!! It might go well to research on those since you might be experiencing them, or showing symptoms of being about to experience one of those. And I've experienced those three!!! And it's not really a nice experience, so, the sooner you can check if you experience them or not, the better!!! Stay safe, and I wish you luck finding your past life's group!~
to indulge in the sunlight only ever as a lingering thought.
I was doing my hourly zoning out and I realized. That the reason my cat identity and vampire (Vampurr, if you will, heh...) are so interwined, is because cats are pretty much emotional vampires. Like, you know when they purr they get your stress out? My theory is that they are feeding from your stress, in a way that benefits you both. It might seem silly, but for me this is everything that has made sense in Nature... And I was also zoning out, it's like being drunk on blood for me to zone out.
Hi! I suspect that I might be a vampire but I’m unsure. I was hoping you could offer me some guidance?
My intuition has always been heightened since I was a child, my psychic and magical abilities are strong within me. It’s always been awakened since a very young age. My visions and dreams of my spirit companions/animal guides happening to me immediately after a nonhuman or spiritual awakening 11 years ago, sense of detachment from the mundane world, my deep innate connection to nature and animals, etc etc… what confuses me is that I didn’t feel the need to feed until now to maintain all of this as an adult? Is it possible for this to manifest as an adult in her mid twenties?
What I mean is I fed for the first time last year on blood in November. It felt as if something within myself awakened. I felt a “high” from it. This doesn’t happen each time but when it does, it’s such a powerful feeling for myself. I’ve had urges to bite humans/regular people’s neck for the sake of blood.
I also have done some spells to “awaken” or feel my nonhumanity and it’s worked so many times. I’ve felt in sync with this side of me multiple times before. It’s not something that I can put into words. I can tell that it’s different from my wolf side as well.
I’ve had moments where I find humans/regular people as “prey” (or rather, life force), wanting regular people/humans to get away from me, a detachment from regular people, I’ve had instinctual needs for blood but not often, needing to sink my teeth into someone, etc. I basically have felt the instincts and desires of my nonhumanity.
The problem is that I don’t always feel my instincts or nonhuman urges due to living in a town full of people/humans. I also have this internal connection to vampires as well, like the word sounds right to me at times. I also don’t have heightened senses either.
What do you think? Any thoughts? Thanks in advance!
First of all, I feel the need to specify that your identity is yours, others can try and help you figure out what it is, but it's something that is always flowing and normally doesn't fix a normal box. I can try and help you, but you are the one who must reach the answer to the question of you being a vampire or not.
"is it able for this to manifest in an adult in her mid twenties?" Yes, definitely, a lot of the community realized that they identified as other when they were adults, it's okay if you were a "late bloomer"! It's okay if you had it manifest in your mid twenties Stars, it would even be okay if it manifested when you were in your mid seventies! Your identity is still there and valid as any other vampire's! About not always feeling your instincts or urges, it's also okay! You may experience shifts randomly, I do too! I'm always a vampire, but after all, sometimes it's more of a casual thing rather than a "I want to drink someone's blood" thing! And that's fine! I recommend you to search different kinds of blood drinkers in mythology, that might help you, and if no label fits you other than vampire, then use vampire! If two labels fit you, use both! Use none! You don't even need to search for labels! Do what is best for you, if you want to call yourself a vampire, do it! There isn't a criteria to fit, other than "Does it feel better to call yourself a vampire than to not do it?" Personally, from what I read on your ask, I do think it's really likely you are a sanguinarian vampire, I'd recommend to look at the vampire community, and get a home in there for some time. It doesn't need to be permanent, nor does it need to be one that is similar to other vampire's. May you find out your identity!
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Hi! Questioning sang vampire here.
Did you go through an awakening as a vampire? If so, what was it like?
I find it really funny that you asked me. Out of all sanguinarians vampire, you asked one of the least qualified ones. So, the main event that has let me known that ever since I was a little fledgeling I knew I was a vampire, is that I remember for no reason? Being super duper quiet one day, as a really small kid, and then talking to my sibling, to tell them that I had a secret. That I was vampire. And when my sibling told me to prove it to them, because we were both like. Five years old at max, I, with no hesitation, bit them the hardest I would in a pulse point (which is even more curious thinking about it?? Because I remember having watched it a lot of times that day??? And I'm just now realizing it was a part where you can register a person's pulse ?), I don't remember much after that besides my sibling like. Screaming at the top of their lungs and me probably bruising them. I do remember that it didn't leave blood though... And that I felt super guilty, but whatever Second, are little events that are pretty much hints of either being super obsessed with or being a vampire is that I remember being super happy when my fangs fell off my mouth because!!! I'd have longer!!! fangs!!! And I've always had a super weird fascination with blood, when I was little I still had it even though I felt super guilty about it because! Blood isn't good!! Blood comes from injuries, and injuries hurt! And pain bad! So blood bad too! But even then I'd find me super scared staring at humans bleeding and being like "Scary!!!!!!" "................" "I want to consume that." And sometimes, if they left blood somewhere and I knew no one could see it, I WOULD!!! LICK IT!!! WHICH LIKE??? HUH??? I WAS A KID??? A KID SUPER SCARED OF PAIN AND BLOOD AND SHIT??? AND I WAS LICKING BLOOD OFF THE FLOOR? AND TABLES??? AND ANYWHERE THAT BLOOD COULD BE??? HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH???
I also had a weird fascination with biting, but that can always be excused with oral fixation, so it's not that much of a give away. Unless you count that most of the times I bit into something I was like "Sighhhhh... I wish this was /insert person/'s arm It'd be nice to bite them and draw blood from them And drink their blood To remember the taste of it forever and be able to distinguish the scent of their blood from other human's blood-" So! Yeah, I think that from this info, the thing that let me know was "Look into your past, think of when you were a little child and what you would think of. And if you find way too many core memories related to biting, blood and shit, you probably are a vampire, werewolf... Or someone that really, really wants to drink blood"
Being a vampire is nice until you have to resist the urges to jump on top of humans and bite them whenever you're hungry. Or when you start wanting to do a hunt.
Resisting the urges to jump on humans and bite them... Really really badly though A few days ago I bit two humans at almost the same time just because I got the opportunity to. I need to drink blood or I fear it will just get worse-
I'm really really hungry, and whenever I try filling the Blackhole in my stomach it just seems to fail to fill it. I don't know where to get blood from in these moments because I can't get it from the usual human I get it consensually from.