#vampette

Long story short though I definitely still love him. I’m not going to see him as any different because it’s his voice that got me though all the abuse that I went through. My family definitely broke during that time, but it’s Brads voice that got me though all of it. Hell even my MOM listens to the Vamps and knows them as soon as a song comes on…

I won’t be upset with him, if anything I’ll be happy for him because he deserves to have that love. Will I be slightly upset that I’m not her? Maybe, but I know I never owned him and he just without knowing he was, was there for me in my darkest hour. So how can I repay him?

I’ll repay him by being absolutely happy for him when he finds that love that he deserves. I’ll continue to support him and the others of the band just like I have for the past 10 years. I love all of the boys and I would never dream of hating them for finding love.

So am I upset that he waits till I FINALLY (after years of wanting to, but never having any ideas) (cause y’all know I think it’s weird to write about someone already taken…) write for him? Oh you bet I’m a little upset about it, but as I said I still love and support him fully. He’s baby and nothing will ever change how his voice got me though all of what my family went though.

He got me though all the crap my sisters Ex put us all though. So I will never stop admiring Brad’s beautiful voice. Did my view on him change at all? Maybe a little bit. Like I’m not fully (as my family would say…) “obsessed” over him as I once was. BUT! I still have and always will have a love for him and the others wether that love be a “romantic” feeling or a “I admire you so much,” feeling.

They’re two entirely different feelings and I have them both still.

So this is me saying I WILL ALWAYS BE A VAMPETTE I don’t care the circumstances. I am absolutely forever grateful to my Vamily for always always being there.

That’s a plus that came with it all I made so many vapette and vampion friends over the years and I am so so thankful for all of them.

I WILL continue to love Brad

I WILL continue to love Con

I WILL continue to love Tris

And

I WILL continue to love James

It’s just the way it is. When you love a band for more then ten years and they’re your first “real” band you ever liked you’ll never lose that love for them, over time the love may just change from how you first loved them and that’s 100% ok…