it's sooooo stupid that neurological issues come with physical symptoms. my hands shake like crazy because my brain is wired wrong and i'm supposed to just live with that. i can try and hide it all i want with a pencil brush so it looks like my lines are almost supposed to come out looking shaky or uneven but the second i switch to a new program where i don't have that luxury (like magma) that whole defense goes out the window. im going to gnaw my own fingers off.

















