#unfulfilled

I just want someone to choose me before others. I feel selfish to think like that, spoiled to want to be someones world to just want, when i already have people who love me. Why can't i be satisfied by what im getting? Why do i want more? Why do I feel unfulfilled? Its hard writing emotions, i can't fit so much in so litle the words that i write dont feel enough for what i am feeling. I envy the ones that can explain or write them. People can understand them. When i write or try to explain anything, I feel like I didnt capture my feelings in anything i said its like i just said the words without meaning but than again how can anything we say be meaningless, it still comes from emotions we are feeling but i feel like i dont say what i mean even if the words were created by the emotions i feel.

i was conflicted on honoring this req, as it was sent before i made my blacklist post and since it was sitting here since 2025. i've ultimately decided not to, unfortunately. i'm really sorry anon, i have that list for a reason & if i make one exception, there will be more people coming out the woodwork to overstep it. on the off chance you see this, i hope you can find someone to honor this req for you :,]

I feel unfulfilled in life