#understimulation

I swear non adhd people not understanding how extreme understimulation is is so annoying. I tell them I get so bored I want to smash my head into the table and they look at me like I'm insane, or as if I'm exaggerating like no I'd rather repeatedly hurt myself to the point I'm in genuine pain thansit here for another 10 min. It sometimes gets so bad that I go home in complete distress because I'm just so bored and feel so trapped (I also have social anxiety so stimulating stuff is something too embarrassing).

I want to tie you to the headboard of our bed, and then not do anything. Just kneel between your legs and watch. Watch, as the confusion sets in first, wondering why I’m not doing anything, maybe you try to speak, but then I shake my head once, letting you know words will not help you here. Your hips begin wiggling, your body squirming, maybe a needy little whine here or there. But, I can see, the slight wetness growing from where I’m sat. Then, further, as now the desperation sets in, for me to move, to touch you where you’re now beginning to ache, to do anything at all, but I’m still simply, content to watch, to inspect, to learn. How long can my greedy little puppy really last before I finally put a finger on you?

Understimulation is not the same as being bored in the same way overstimulation is not the same as being overwhelmed with tasks/confusion. btw