#underneath verse

Look. I know I said The End would be next, but Jared still wants to say his piece, so we're going back all the way to the beginning.

Outtake for Underneath It All: Jensen leaves the Mansion (for the first time)

Jared POV, 1.4k, rated E

The cab was idling in front of the entrance stairs. A cab. Idling in front of Jared’s house. Theo at the front gate had sounded like he suspected the Irish mob was hiding in the trunk, ready to take their revenge on Jared, because no one ever came here in a fucking cab.

Jensen had called one like it was nothing.

Underneath #3 || Playlist dedicated to the Underneath Verse by @ashtraythief 💖

Everybody knows that the dice are loaded Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed Everybody knows the war is over Everybody knows the good guys lost Everybody knows the fight was fixed The poor stay poor, the rich get rich That's how it goes Everybody knows

Thank you <3 You just gave me the biggest smile. I hope you don't mind me publishing this because I wanted to answer you but also stull preserve the comment.

That verse was what got me through unemployment and quarantine, and it's probably my personal favorite of my writings. It means a lot that someone still finds it and enjoys it - though I'm sorry for sucking you into a 180k story with an innocent little oneshot! :D

Realizations (J2)

The first time Jared realizes he wants Jensen to stay forever. Set about a year into their relationship.

rated E | porn with feelings | of the possessive variety | 3k

So, when they talk about pulling him, how would that even happen? Would they make it so Jensen literally disappears from existence (to Jared’s knowledge) and has the guy wondering exactly what the fuck happened to Jensen and possibly have him investigating into everything in the hopes of finding him, or would they make it seem like he died?

Of course seeing it play out would be cool, but I think even just knowing how that would look like is interesting as hell in itself.

I apologize if you’ve discussed if before, but I was just reminded of that as I literally re-read this fic haha.

Love love love your writing & this series. Your characterizations and how you portray character development is so good. Especially in the last chapter of Pressure Point where it’s so fricken clear just how isolated and detached Jensen feels from his family. You can see how attached Jensen has grown to Jared’s crew and sees them as his family over his own — how he compares Sam’s lasagna to his mom’s like how you think of your ex when you see something that they used to like, how he’s forgotten details of his own family but remembered the little things of Jared’s, how he took the cat magnet from his mom’s fridge for Willy. It’s the unconscious thoughts and actions that kinda cement his feelings and opinions of how he feels towards both families whether he consciously thinks of it or not. Through his eyes, even we feel the detachment to his blood family.

It really slapped me in the face when I re-read it, though maybe it had slipped past me and I hadn’t actually read it until then.

In any case, great stuff! Love your world building. Thank you so much for sharing your world, your characters, your writing with us.

Omg thank you so so much for your lovely message! Despite falling into new fandoms, this fic will always be my baby so whatever love it gets is just always extra special and feeds my little writer heart 💙

And ack I'm so happy you noticed the fridge magnet! And the lasagna! I didn't want Jensen to actively think too much about how detached he's becoming from his family because I don't think it's something he wants to examine in detail even though he knows it's happening (he needs to still be close to his family because he needs to go back to them because he needs to do his job) so I've tried to put in these little things showing how he's emotionally becoming distanced as he finds and lets himself have this new family.

As for the pulling Jensen out, I think early on the plan was for Jensen to just leave Jared and then have Campbell disappear to Europe. I don't think anyone had a concrete timeline in the beginning because they had no idea how long it would take and by the end they're just riffing it honestly. I think at this point in the story, both Jensen and Jeff have seperately developed and understanding of how it will have to go, but I don't want to go into it too much because it will come up in a way in The End. Which I am working on 😅 (the draft is at 80k and I'm hoping to make some progress in the coming months when my underneath beta is coming to visit me). So I know I'm asking for a lot of patience here, but I do want to wrap up or at least address most of the loose threads of the story in The End. And I don't want to give out spoilers really, because it feels too much like jinxing it 😅 but there is a plan! Jensen has one. I have one. Finishing is just hard because I want to get it right, you know?

Since I've been getting several asks about this, I decided to make an update post, and whenever something significant happens, writing-wise, I'll update this post. This is probably going to haunt me for a very long time, but I'm being pretty productive right now, so present!me thinks this is a great idea, while future!me is probably going to hate this. But that is not my problem, so. Here is where we are, on 16. June 25:

I just have few questions regarding it...like in the beginning of the investigation Alona was kind of threatening (I don't if it's the right word) towards Jensen because she said that this case is very personal to her so he shouldn't screw this up. And in another instance it was breifly mentioned about who Alona lost (sorry I don't remember the name it's kind of foggy) so I was asking will we get any backstory about it or like is it some plot that is important to the story? And also like Alona and Jensen have really like stopped talking now...and she also doesn't really support or believe in Jensen anymore but if Jensen were to call her now would she pick up his call since the task force is also no longer there? Wouldn't Jared get suspicious or maybe worried more like that Jensen had not called his sister in a long time or smth? Or now that they are married and 3 years into this he would insist on meeting his sister in Australia? I know the FBI are not the main characters of this story but I was just wondering.

Also I wanted to ask if you are still taking any prompts for this verse? And pleasseeee a little hint of how far you are in writing The End..like will it be in the next months or by the end of this year? It's totally fine if you don't want to spoil😔

Sorry now I realized that's a lot more than few questions 🥲 I just really love your spectacular work♥️♥️ Hope you are well.

Thank you so much for your kind message, nonnie, I'm so happy you enjoyed this story so much and that you took the time to send me such a lovely message!

(Don't know what's in the water with the underneath verse currently but okay)

As for your questions

Yeah, it's kind of insane 😅