#u understand

For anyone who isn't aware of the context of this, I had a moment on Bluesky frustrated about Lagovirt's video on So Sorry from Undertale and had a thread where I expressed my extreme distaste for the way Youtube videos frame serious issues or problematic people as means of entertainment. At one point I got many comments trying to justify the video by saying that the subject matter of Floraverse excused the framing of the video and the author's previous usage of Kiwifarms (something I know now that they don't use and have sworn off. I got opinions on this that aren't relevant to the topic at hand, so I'll refrain from that point.) I said "I don't care about Floraverse" in the thread because I was trying to say that I think this style of video, from the impression I got, was founded on a rotten core and the subject matter wasn't relevant. I didn't think out everything I said and some folks who were hurt by FV folks or FV-adjecent-folks voiced their disappointment in me and I responded poorly because I was still frustrated with how my words were interpreted. I've since apologized for my language and the way I approached the matter, but I've continued to have people say I'm a zoopedo cult defender, like here. You can read my initial clarification which contains an apology for the way I acted here.

Anyway, to properly respond to this ask: Yeah, I've listened to the people I've hurt. I reached out and tried to handle this like a mature adult by talking about it and trying to be graceful and not relegate it to bitter posting on Bluesky since I would rather no one get hurt in any further situations. SKL is clearly not doing well and neither are my partners, who have had to see a lot of terrible shit said about me that just isn't true. SKL doesn't wanna talk, and that's fine, I don't blame em, but I've done really all I can do on my end to resolve things that I'm willing to do. I'm not gonna self-flagellate publicly or anything because that doesn't really help anyone and. I just don't wanna do that.

I literally have apologized and admitted wrongdoing on my end. At this point, it's on folks like you to understand that I have, sorry. There are several, several instances of me admitting I acted poorly in public and in private and trying to resolve things in ways that wouldn't make the situation worse or more volatile. I don't know how much more I can do for people to show that I really would like this to end? I know a lot of people want me to dedicate my time and image to uplifting victims of Floraverse, but, I'm sorry, that's not something I want to do. This was personally never about FV to me, I've never supported them, I don't like them and from what I've read into I'm extremely uncomfortable with everything surrounding them. At no point have I voiced my explicit support for them because my initial rant was about my distaste for a practice I see a lot on Youtube, not about something I was already wary of and disliked before this even occurred. Eevee reached out to me and I told them I didn't want to have any interaction. I'm trying to make this explicitly clear: I believe FV victims, I don't like what I've seen from FV, and I don't want their support nor have I ever supported them. Please, god, stop saying I'm a fucking pedozoo cult defender. That is not something I've ever been or ever want to be, especially as someone with multiple fuckin' CSA survivors in my life who are near and dear to me.

I don't have any actual clue who you're referring to when you say I'm friends with active Floraverse members, because the way you worded it seems like there's more people than Sam? And yeah, Sam's partner Eli is one of my best friends. The way I handle my best friend's partner being part of something I have an extreme distaste for is something that will be handled between adults beyond closed doors because it's a fuckin' private matter and not something that would benefit from being aired out publicly like dirty laundry, sorry. Approaching shit like this is a complicated subject and I don't want friendship advice from tumblr users who call me a zoopedo cult defender.

Also any hate I got is not 'cuz I'm autistic, that's not something I've ever claimed as far as I know. I'm in the "not diagnosed but pretty sure" camp, and it's not something I would pull out to justify my actions. I talk about me being trans a lot in this context because the type of harassment I've gotten (not connected to any of the hurt parties, but just by randos) happens a lot to transgender people online, and I make my living being a figure online. If people harass me off the internet and away from my social safety nets, I lose my goddamn income, and I already live paycheck-to-paycheck functionally. Regardless of if this was the case or not for this particular event, large harassment campaigns aimed at getting someone to self-flagellate publicly or exile themselves happens to trans people a LOT, so forgive me for being extremely wary considering what I've seen online prior to this.