Figured I might as well talk about the situation since I’m not sure how long my brain will let me go without doing so. Warning that this is somewhat long
Apologies if my wording is bad or if it feels like I’m just rambling, it’s late and my friends are likely asleep at the moment so they can’t tone check for me, but I figured I might as well just try to get out what I’m trying to say (this post may be edited in the future if I find better ways to say what I’m trying to get across). If you need elaboration or anything else, just say so and I’ll try my best to explain.
Also, apologies for the vagueness, my natural response to stress is to try to block out whatever’s stressing me because of how quickly I get big reactions. It’s mostly just so I don’t start getting too intense with my emotions in the middle of writing. This is about Dandy’s World
How completely and utterly fucked. Makes me feel sick just thinking about the whole thing. I try not to put too much faith into creators to be good people, but it doesn’t change how upset the whole thing makes me. I try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, but I can’t imagine there’s many ways you can come back from this, so I’m not holding onto much, if any, hope.
As for me, if this is a point of questioning for you, I will still be interacting with and engaging in the fandom. For two reasons, mainly:
A) There’s been similar situations in other fandoms I’ve been in before and all it’s taught me is that trying to push out my own hyperfixations just makes everything worse for everyone (not just ruining my mental health, but the effects of that destruction being clear in how I treat others, making me far more susceptible to lashing out and just generally make me hate everyone around me), so I’m simply letting it pass by me naturally. I likely won’t be playing the game, but that’s just something I’ve been doing anyway since I’ve found playing incredibly draining lately. I usually only hopped on when there was a new update anyway.
B) I am under the firm belief that enjoying (and choosing to express said enjoyment) things made by bad people does not inherently make you a bad person, nor does it inherently mean you support their actions. I always strive to be a good person, of course, I think most people want to be good, but I feel when I get caught up in what bad people are doing I get into this mindset that I have to be the one to fix everything, even if I’m physically incapable of it, which just makes me feel like a bad person when I don’t think I’m fixing it well enough (because I know logically that I can’t), which is partially why, outside of this post, I’ll be leaving myself out of this discussion, especially since I don’t think I have much of a right to try to enter it when I have no relation to anything outside of the smallest connection one could possibly make. I feel that it’s not my place. I understand if this ruins your enjoyment of the game, for a good part, it has for me as well. I’m simply choosing to wait out this interest without holding the fact that I enjoyed it in the first place against myself, as I feel I am prone to do.
In the future, I’ll be tagging all reblogs and posts about the game if you wish to not see it, which I completely understand. If you don’t like my decision to continue engaging with this game’s fandom, I also understand that, and you’re completely free to do whatever you deem necessary about it. I just hope none of you take my decision the wrong way. I do not support the people behind the game. I support those affected.
Also, for those stressed about the whole thing, I’ll be using the following tags on this post and reblogs about the situation, so feel free to block them if necessary: #tw qwel and #tw rox
I’ll be heading to bed soon. If it’s late for you, I suggest you do the same. Love you all
