Wow. Been a while since I had a looong picking session. Its been like... 3 hours now? I hate how good it feels while also feeling TERRIBLE. It feels like catching up on sleep but being unable to control my body. It's almost like Ive been holding my breathe for weeks and now and I'm finally getting a breath of air. If that air were toxic... So I guess its more of an addiction... I think I've been trying to do too much and have been holding everything in. My brain is just taking the road most traveled by picking again. But like is it even helping anymore? I feel more tense now than before I started picking? But even noticing that I can't just STOP...










