#tw fusion

Finally making a post about this, because we had to check if it was true and ensure we were sure ourselves. We’re both sad and happy to say April has fused into the rest of the system. We hit an important mental health milestone and felt it happen several weeks ago. In our system, he was the anger holder. He also had the comedic timing of a legend and sass like you wouldn’t believe. There was nothing it wouldn’t do for someone in the system.

We held a small sort of mourning ceremony for him. The part of our mind he held is still here, but he itself is gone. Many of us were hit hard with this, as it was incredibly sudden and without warning.

I (Meggie, the host) realized what was happening in his very final moments and attempted to keep him and talk him out of it. His last words were “I don’t know. I’m tired. I’m sorry.”

He leaves behind our headmate Mark, who considered April to be a sibling. Rooney, its old partner in crime. The many teen boy alters who learned from April, both good and bad. And Lestat, who had fierce respect for April’s fire and musical ability.

Below is his old headmate page, to be viewed if you knew nothing about it.

Thank you.

Im a fusion of two alters and I can't help but feel like my sys hates me because of it, the miss the alters that fused to create me which I get but its gotten to a point where they refuse to talk or look at me.

I haven't properly seen roxxy or kai since viscera showed up, at least when shx had a more solid identity

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please tell me they didnt fuse or anything

I could probably live without kai

it would be so fucking upsetting, yeah, he was one of the first headmates I met soon after syscovery. and xe's so important to me. but I could manage. I think..

but ROXXY?

no WAY I could manage without her. she's the cohost, and she's one of the nicest people here, shes so fun to talk to, i dont want her gone, especially since fleur has been gone for... SO long. plus astro? hy'll miss her even worse, i bet

i'm sick of losing (in whatever sense it is) headmates that actually positively affect me. why can't I lose mary eunice? when all she does is remind me of my flaws and my sins, as she calls them? and causes active harm to everyone here?

please tell me shes just not anywhere near front. even if she's dormant, that's better than her being gone!

So, I'm not sure if I've already said this or not, but in this au, Reality accidentally split the account between him and Sabre instead of taking it. So, they both have some kind Reality's powers, and they both have the ability to leave the server. Except, the only issue, is that they're stuck outside the server. They're both "out of bounds", if you will.

The chains they both have on them are because of the shared account.

Technically, this means that Galaxy ALSO has a part of the account since he's fused with Illusion. They tried to separate him from Illusion, but let's just say that doing so didn't end well, as he's also bound to them, so they stay as Reality instead.

As Reality, Galaxy isn't as locked away as Illusion would like. Their voices overlap and Galaxy has full control over the top set of eyes they have (the third one is shared between the two of them). Galaxy is forced to say whatever Illusion tries to say, but he can change the tone and volume of his own voice to whatever he wants

Yes, Galaxy still yaps about wanting sandwiches and other foods while stuck with Illusion. At first, it drove Illusion half insane, having to deal with Sabre AND his creator bugging him constantly. That is, until Sabre locked in and started being helpful (/silly).

What actually happened was that Sabre found out that by touching Reality, he can take half of any pain he's feeling. He can't control that, it's just whenever they touch each other, the pain kinda bluetooths. Before this, he didn't think that the steves could ACTUALLY feel pain. Sure, they expressed being tired or hurt, but Sabre just thought that they were just exaggerated how many hearts they had left. But when he actually felt HALF of the pain of one of Reality's migraines, he realized that they can actually feel and their feelings are real.

Now knowing that what he's dealing with wasn't just an expressive, highly advanced bug in his game, he started to actually take things seriously. He still was kinda stupid though, but spending enough time with Reality helped with that. He regrets hurting everyone now, having thought that they were NPCs and now feeling guilty over causing genuine harm.

Is that a possibility