Ticci Toby headcanons!
MDNI PLEASE
tw mention of abuse, toxic relationships, reality check, slight nsfw
he's not a subby helpless twig looking little boy everyone makes him out to be in fanfics all the time. he's out every day basically doing hard labor every day since killing grown human beings weighing like 70kg average isn't an easy job and requires strength. maybe he was skinny when he just got to the mansion and started working for Slenderman but as time went on and he was being sent out to perform harder tasks his body kept adapting slowly and he's basically working out every day. Chasing after people at full speed isn't exactly as easy as it looks and not to mention having to carry limp bodies or even overpowering other grown men. i mean toby already had the potential since he killed his father alone while he was still a minor.
personality wise he's not as clingy and subby as the fandom makes him out to be either. I mean we are talking about a man who spent his whole childhood getting bullied by everyone in his life, not shown a single moment of peace, constantly living in chaos, when he was younger he couldn't do much, standing up for himself wasn't an option, but now that he's the fittest he's ever been in his life and detached from morality us normies go by every day he has the freedom to do as he pleases, and lets bffr those circumstances wont be making some weak character in someone. that's how cruel monsters are born, he takes his anger out on all of his victims probably making a mess out of every bloody scene he creates. And even at the mansion I don't perceive him as someone to let people walk all over him like people say other proxies do.
relationship wise I think he would be looking for a partner that would allow him to feel comfort he never got to experience in his early years. but someone finally treating him right for the first time would be sending danger alarms to his poor nervous system that's been on fire basically since he was born. he wouldn't know how to accept or reciprocate love in any way and he would deny his feeling lying to himself over and over again until eventually he couldn't take it anymore and would most likely have an emotional outburst and in that moment all he would need is comfort and acceptance from the person he loves. but before that can happen he would be a situationship from HELL it would be like constant thug of war for love with you two. extremely toxic and petty too btw and it would most likely take blood sweat and tears from both of you to actually get anywhere near to a healthy relationship.
since he didn't have friends growing up I think hed spend a lot of time unsupervised on the internet, leading to probably early access to stuff like porn that would permanently alter his brain chemistry. He also most likely has NO experience with women so the first time he is actually given the opportunity to indulge in his desires he would take it. the concept of virginity wouldn't matter much to him. so i think he would likely find anyone desperate enough to have sex no strings attached and no questions asked just for the sake of losing his v card and it would probably be a bad experience so the first time he actually makes love with someone would be like rebirth for him.
even tho I don't think he would be a virgin i think it would be a long time since he has sex again so when he finally meets someone he falls for he would get a little needy lowk but would also be horrible at it since the person he lost his v card with was probably a female prostitute or a random gay man that approached him while he was out on a mission and he basically just says fuck it.
his stuttering is something hes always been ashamed of and would work hard on trying to fix it every day, looking up different ways to fix it online and overtime i think its something he will drastically improve, however its useless when hes mas and arguing with someone since its hard for him to focus on not stuttering while his emotions are so unregulated and its something he would deadass get pissed about mid argument.
since he cant feel any pain from his disability i think he would have a hard time controlling his bladder and would have to take care of it in unconventional timings literally only going to the bathroom when his body cant hold it in anymore
i dont think the scar on his cheek is something hes insecure about, hed be the type to not really care about his looks, no sense of fashion as well, that's why his haircuts would always be a little overgrown but it would always suit him so well.
because of his bipolar dating him would be really hard especially when he's unmedicated because it would constantly either be the best time of your life and you two would be amazing for each other or he would turn into the spawn of Satan and he would constantly hurt you, the lows would be so low you both would bring each other to borderline suicidal thoughts but the highs of your relationship would be so high he would make u forget all about the toxicity for like a week.
he would sometimes get embarrassed when he salivates through the gash in his cheek but its not something he can help but u playing with it and kissing his whole face like nothing is wrong makes him more confident in himself.
during sex he would rarely allow you to dominate him since he is still very much traumatized from never given the opportunity to be the leader or dominant in any way in his childhood but when he does he would get emotional and cum really hard then post nut clarity would hit like a bitch and hed cry about how much he is lucky to have someone like you that allows him to heal some of those wounds.
would still prefer to dominate and be in charge, i assume he would really be into brat taming since he never got to fix anyone attitude before u.
