So, I was thinking about Kishiar (again) and I found myself reflecting on his perfection in everything he sets out to do, wondering how he managed to be so good and make everything seem so easy. Then I realized that probably a lot of it was due to his innate talent, yes, but also a result of his urgency.
Kishiar is someone who, since childhood, lived with the certainty that he wouldn't live much longer and that any bad day could be his last, but from what we can see of his childhood, he was also a child full of life and dreams, with a thirst for knowledge and an apparently insatiable curiosity. With his life basically a countdown to death, where his body would deteriorate and become progressively more unstable over the years, his eagerness and desire to learn and discover everything he could while he had the freedom to do so became even more important, with the urgency of knowing that he didn't have the luxury of trying the same thing multiple times forcing him to be perfect on the first try.
All of Kishiar's genius, his apparent innate talent for everything, his absurd mastery of all existing powers, his vast knowledge, his unbelievable ability to do everything perfectly on the first try โ all of this is the result of a desperate determination born from the urgency of knowing that his time was limited, from the certainty that if he wished to live as many experiences and have as many achievements as he could in his too short life, he needed to be the best he could be so as not to waste his precious time and energy.
And I believe that this urgency, even if lessened now that he knows his vessel is stable and that he won't die at any moment, still remains with Kishiar, hidden behind his smile and his relaxed posture that exudes confidence, because someone who spent his entire life racing against time to live, who knew that blessings didn't always last forever or were as welcome as people might imagine, now that he has received a freedom he never dared even dream of, would constantly yearn to fully enjoy everything he thought he could only taste in his condemned life.
