#trystanvel

Is anyone else literally spent? I worry all the time about getting sick, is my family or friends sick, i spend worrying amounts of time reading articles about Coronavirus. We find ourselves so anxious literally all the time. We are scared to talk to others about it, afraid they will say we are overreacting or tell us to chill out, scared we’ll make them anxious too. Are you going through this too? Can you hear me?

You ever seen someone do something so stupid that you instinctively facepalm? and you don’t realize you even did it, the facepalm is just so covert and ninja-like on top of the stupid shit you just witnessed that all of it together feels like a shock to the senses?

I am hurt and i know I shouldn’t be. I set her up to have a successful career and I’m so happy for her and i know I’ve already had my successes I just didn’t know the end would look like this. That they would let me go because I sustained an injury even though i am working through it so that it won’t show that I’m in pain, that they would treat my replacement, (my partner) better than they ever treated me. It just feels weird and bad perhaps the best way i can deal with this is distance. I think that’s a good idea though impossible because she always needs me to help her respond to them and help her along because of her anxiety and if it were a normal circumstance I wouldn’t mind at all but I need to put some mileage between me and them. #bumpyroad

So my partner got lost on memory lane and im pulling out the compass “like how’d we get here? I think we took a wrong turn somewhere” sigh. FB stalking your ex never goes well if your already in a relationship kids.