#trigger warning depression

ok, I know no one's gonna care, and that it's useless for me to post this and ya.

But I just feel bad for not posting regularly, but uh, I'm not okay rn. And what I thought would be just a small amount of time off, is probably gonna be something like a month. I was about to come back because I thought I had mostly beaten what was going on. But uh ya, I relapsed and I'm worse now.

He doesn’t hate Link out of jealousy per say. It’s because he can’t read him. He says it’s like taking to a stone. Link is expressionless and doesn’t react to anything Revali says or does.

Link’s depression over being the chosen one was so strong by the point he met Revali that he just… stopped caring about everything except the duty he was being forced to perform. The most emotion we see him express is when he’s eating the grilled lava rock Daruk hands out, and that’s it. He’s always serious and stoic and just… there. He does his duty as a knight, as the chosen one, but he’s living on autopilot. He’s tired. He’s stressed. He just wants the war to be over and his role to be fulfilled.

No need to be rude nonny! Why are you so mad? I am not forcing you or anyone else to donate. I am trying to raise money for them is all.

I am not taking in all these cats, they live in my neighborhood, and they are suffering. They have no food and no real shelter, and no one to take care of them.

I lost one of my own cats a few months ago, and it literally shattered my heart, to this day I haven't recovered yet, seeing cats suffering has become a trigger, I just can't bear it. Every time I go out for whatever reason I promise myself to never go out again, because everywhere I go I find cats in terrible conditions.

In my city, every street, every neighborhood, and every district are endless parking lots. And everything is just unclean and unsafe. It's a hostile city for animals in general and cats and dog in particular. We don’t have big parks and gardens and shelters to put them in. We’re a country that barely takes care of its humans.

And we have an institution we call Galoufa, (you can Google it, but be warned it's really graphic and horrible and also everything is in French or Arabic). This institution kills animals all the time and en masse. They are supposed to be getting the city rid of rabid animals, but they kill every animal they encounter including the ones who have owners. Leaving these cats alone will put them in danger. I cannot afford to take care of them but I cannot afford to leave them alone either. They will be begging for food and if annoyed the neighbors will call Galoufa which will come running to take them to their death.

Just because I can't afford to help them doesn't mean I shouldn't want to. Does it, nonny? You think I should just stop? Believe I am incapable of that. I cannot afford to help them all the time, but when I can I do. We’ve been taking care of them so far, and my sister has taken so so many random cats to the vet this past couple of months.

I cannot afford to help them at all times, but as a human I have the ability to actually reach out to people all over the world and ask for help, why shouldn't I? For my ego? Or my pride? In fear of embarrassment? Because I’m an adult? We’re humans, we should be better than that, this past couple of years I’ve learned to never hesitate to ask for help when you need it. There are some amazing, generous and kind people who can help. So why not give them the opportunity to do so? Most of the time help brings joy to both sides. I am always glad to help and I am always glad to be asked for help. We’re freaking humans! We should be helping one another, and we should be saving the planet we live in and that includes animals.

I thank you, nonny, for this ask, because I really wanted to write this disclaimer, and you gave me the perfect opportunity.

Disclaimer:

I quit my job and have isolated myself from the world because of my anxiety and depression, that's why I am struggling at the moment. I've had a rough year and wasn't able to make enough CC to have spare money. All of my TSR incentives go to my own cats and dog. Otherwise I wouldn't be begging for money, believe me.

My family isn’t poor, we’re a middle class family, but middle class in North Africa, so I let you imagine what that means. Compared to many families we’d be considered rich even. We live in a big apartment and we all have jobs. But as I said we’re having a rough year. But we’ll be back on our feet soon. (Fun fact: Yes I still live with my mom and sisters btw, in my country we do not leave our parents’ home at 18yo, we simply can’t, life is too expensive. In general, we only leave when we get married, I just wanted to let you laugh at us for a second here).

PS. I know some of you are thinking, “well get yourself together and find yourself a real job.” Well I worked for 4 years as a FREAKING ARCHITECT, I was paid a 1/4 of what TSR pays me when I make enough CC. In my country we architects are super super underpaid.