#trials!sam

His skin was warm, but not feverish tonight- a good sign, you figured. Carefully opening his shirt, you worked on every muscle you could reach, soothing every tightness in his chest and arms, all the way down to his long fingertips. Sam melted under your touch, sinking deeper into the mattress with each press of your hand. 

“That feels amazing,” he moaned, “thank you.” 

With a relieved smile, you lifted his right hand and kissed the pad of each finger. “I just wish I could do more,” you whispered, leaving a final kiss in the center of his palm. 

“You do so much,” he replied, curling his big hand around yours and drawing you up to him. “I’m sorry if I don’t show it or tell you.” His voice cracked as you came close, snuggling up beneath his arm and curling into his side. “I love you.” 

“I love you too, Sam.” 

A sweet kiss of affirmation took hold of you both and Sam’s arms folded tightly around you. You were wary of his condition, hesitant to let go, but he coaxed you alive with wandering hands and a hungry tongue. 

“You sure?” you asked as he pulled you to lay on top of him. “I don’t wanna hurt you.”

Sam sucked your bottom lip into his mouth and bucked his hips upwards, showing you that he was more than sure. 

It was slow. You rode him carefully with two bracing hands behind you on his firm thighs as he cupped your breasts. It was hot and sweaty and everything you both needed. It was a reminder that he was still there, that he was still Sam.

You lay in silence afterward, your hand pressed to his heart, his eyes locked to yours. 

“I know things have been crazy lately,” he said out of nowhere, licking his dry lips so the words could flow. “But, you really… I’m so glad you’re here.” 

You smiled and held back a wave of tears. Despite his insistence that he was fine, you knew he wasn’t, knew how bad it was, knew it could only get worse. The thought of losing him scared you to death. 

“I’ll always be here,” you said finally, leaning closer to kiss his lips. “No matter what.” 

He slept for the first time in a week that night, his hand closed tight around yours. You stayed up as long as you could, watching him breathe, making sure he was safe and comfortable. 

You couldn’t take the pain from him, couldn’t ease the burden of the Trials, but you could give him this. You could give him love. 

Saturday Season Drabbles - Season 8

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