It's the middle of the night
I lie wide awake, terrified of the everything
I am surrounded by people I like, who share my interests, who I can even be open about my sexuality and gender garbage from depths of my head
And yet, at the same time, my brain SCREAMS, VIOLENTLY
That I don't know a single person who would understand me and the way my thoughts and interests work, who wouldn't look weird at me for phrasing things weirdly or behaving wrongly
And I don't UNDERSTAND, I cannot GRASP which part of my perception of reality is correct and factual
Am I, like, broken or is this even a thing other people go through
Just wanna wanna sleep soundly instead of this...