#01 Feeling lonely.
Do I often feel lonely in a topic...? Have I ever felt loneliness and a sense of uselessness in a world where my behavior is considered deviant and unacceptable?
It may seem that, apart from myself and a small group of "my own", no one is interested in you and does not need you at all. But as long as there's this small group of people, no matter how friendly you are to each other, you shouldn't feel alone.
In my opinion, we are much more lonely in a world with a traditional lifestyle. This is not surprising, but it's easier to get lost in a crowd than in a group of several people, figuratively speaking, of course) - this is how I try to compare the community and the rest of the world outside the community in proportions.
A lonely person like me, in my favorite guise typical of the community, is very unlikely to fit into a society that does not accept deviations from the norms of behavior, even if they do not pose any danger or harm to others. I would like to emphasize that even if you look like a member of the other sex, observing the rules of decency and not provoking excessive attention from others, you may well "play" a member of society, but in the role of a representative of the other sex. And now, with proper training and the ability to behave decently, we are already fully part of society, despite the fact that society may not even be aware of this "substitution."
And most importantly, as a transvestite or another member of the community, I don't live somewhere in a vacuum-we also work, sleep, eat, shop, and interact with the world around us. I know that there are transvestites who can live in character for a while during the day, doing ordinary things, including on the street among people.
I think we create our own loneliness, no matter what we're wearing: trousers or a skirt. It's about character and personality traits, not the tendency to try on and wear women's clothes.
