I’m a girl

But I will never be a woman 

I am a girl, a girl all my life 

So, a girl I will be

But im not a girl like the other girls

Not like the Not Like Other Girls who hate other girls to get boys to like them

I don't like boys that much

But I'm not like the other girls, who can say that they're girls and really mean it

I'm a girl, but when I say it, there's that taste in my mouth when I'm lying to someone 

Like metal

I'm a boy!

A boy with the wrong parts

But great hair, so that's pretty cool

Except for the days when my hair sucks, then I feel like shit, and I'm even more aware of the parts on my body that I can't change, 

And I don't want to change them, I just wish I could put them away for a bit (in a box somewhere)

I'm a boy who used to be a girl

 not like other boys who used to be girls

Because it is not permanent, I will not always be a boy 

I have not been a boy all my life (a girl all my life)

And I will not grow into a man 

I will always be a girl again 

I'm not really a boy (I wish I was)

And when I say that am

There is metal

I'm a person (a thing, but a person thing)

My parts don't feel wrong, just vaguely annoying

Like it would be cool if they weren't so in the way

If they didn't tell everyone that I'm a girl

If I didn't have to be reminded that I'm a girl

I know I'm a girl

A girl all my life (must be)

If they weren't there, maybe people would assume I'm just something 

And I wouldn't need the metal 

I am everything all at once, (a little bit of everything)

A girl, a boy, a person I am the Doctor 1 am a girl

When I am everything, I feel like something 

My fluidity feels real

Less like a performance, more like a fact 

The Doctor does not pretend they just are 

But just as quickly as it comes, it goes And I am acting again

My gender is a performance

And I'm never sure how well I'm doing And I worry no one knows I'm acting

And then I'm just lying

Faking something others must struggle through

Lying through the metal in my mouth

But if I am lying, I do not know what the truth could be 

I am a girl 

And there is metal

A girl all my life (must be)

Metal

I was a girl

That little girl who always wears dresses is still me

We have different names

Different lives

But we love the same

We dream the same

I was a girl

But sometimes I am a boy, and there is metal 

Sometimes I am a person, but there is metal 

Sometimes I am nothing, and it’s metal 

Sometimes I am everything, and there is still metal

I paint my nails, and I do my hair, and i wear all the right bracelets and all the right pins, and I feel like me, but still 

There is metal

I know what I am

The river does not run dry, and the currents are never stagnant for very long, but it is always moving, and it forges its own path, sure of where its going even if it is always changing

But deep in the bottom, hidden in its depths, 

Gold,