#trans rumi

trans Rumi u r so dear to me

Kid Rumi: Celine, I thought about it and I think I’m actually a girl.

Celine: Thank the fucking gods, my prayers have been answered.

Kid Rumi: You’re not mad?

Celine: Rumi, I don’t care if your trans, do you wanna get rid of your patterns? Seal the Honmoon? Turn it gold?

Rumi: Well yeah, of course I do!

SH? sure.

Transfem? Transmasc? sure.

Internalized homophobia? sure.

Intersex? sure.

stretch marks? sure.

That modern AU (featuring polyamory and trans!Rumi) where Zoey and Rumi are stuck working together, both away from where they normally live now staying in air B&B's and hotels while they're on a project. It's how they meet.

Where hook ups happen and it's just casual sex blowing off steam after work here and there. No feelings, nope none at all that's not happening. Rumi back to the city she normally lives in and it's fine. Then oops um unplanned pregnancy and terribly timed realization of feelings, Zoey going to confess to both feelings and pregnancy, but it's not Rumi who opens the door at her rental it's uh her wife? Her really very amazingly gorgeous wife who's holding their toddler who might just be the most adorable toddler Zoey's ever seen in her life.

Fuck.

Celine raises Rumi to be a girl from the start, she doesnt even wait for Rumi to express wanting to be a girl she just does it. “No kid of Mi-Yeong’s mine is going to be a useless boy. She will be a hunter like her mothers before her”

And to Celine’s credit Rumi likes being a girl and a hunter. She likes that she can have her hair braided to be like her mom. she likes that she can summon a sword from thin air and kill demons. she even likes when Celine gives her her weekly “girl vitamins” which all girls take (duh). She always considered herself a girl and never thought otherwise.

So when Rumi finally goes to the bath house with Zoey and Mira after the movie the thing they are most surprised by isn’t her patterns its her penis.

Zoey: Wait you’re trans?

Rumi: Whats that?

Mira: Transgender, like you were born a boy but transitioned to be girl.

Rumi: I’ve always been a girl. 🤨

Zoey: Then why do you have a penis?

Rumi: All girls have that duh.

Zoey and Mira stand up out of the water with a clear lack of penis.

Rumi: Are you both transgender?

Zomira: 🤦‍♀️

One quick biology lesson and few realizations about her childhood later Rumi spirals into an identity crisis. Was she supposed to be a boy? Was she not even supposed to be a hunter? So I am just a no good demon after all?

That last one Zomira are quick to stomp out. But her other questions they try to help her find out on her own. Rumi stops taking her girl vitamins (which she now knows is estrogen) and asks Zomira to start using her/him pronouns.

The pronouns feel weird to Rumi but Rumi figures its just part of it being new. Rumi tells Celine they have to talk. Celine is expecting to talk about what happened not Rumi’s gender. The conversation does not go all that great, Celine stands by her decision to raise Rumi as a girl, trying to use the new honmoon as proof. While Rumi is seemingly having a hard time referring to himself(?) as a boy.

Back home Rumi tries to do normal “boy” things but it isnt going so well. Rumi chickens out of getting a short haircut. (sure not all guys like short hair) Rumi tries a binder but that doesn’t feel right either, it feels like he’s (?) hiding a part if himself(?) again. (sure some trans guys might like their chest so maybe Rumi is like that) Rumi stops shaving his(?) legs but seeing leg hair gives Rumi this creepy crawly feeling that Rumi can’t stand. (plenty of dudes shave their legs its totally normal.)

A couple months into their hiatus and Rhmi’s gender crisis, he/him pronouns still feel like sandpaper to Rumi and everything seems more bland. Even Zoey and Mira have lost some of their brightness to Rumi. But he(?) figures its just still new to him(?). But then while talking to zomira breakfast Rumi’s voice cracks and Rumi freaks out. Rumi teleports back to his(?) room and sobs under the covers. A minute later Zomira comes in to comfort Rumi.

Mira: Hey Rumi can we talk.

Rumi pokes his(?) head out from under the covers and nods yes.

Zoey: Did the voice crack freak you out?

Rumi nods his(?) head yes again.

Mira: Is it because it reminds you of the golden release?

Rumi shakes his(?) head no.

Mira: Then what is Rumi?

Rumi, in a very quiet voice: I don’t want my voice to change.

Zoey and Mira look at each other, the past couple months of Rumi’s gender experiments not ending well and they understand they might need to help Rumi more than they have.

Zoey: We’ve noticed that you really haven't been liking being a boy. You know exploring your gender doesn't mean you have to do things you don't like.

Rumi: I guess...

Mira: You still wince every time we use he/him pronouns. Is it safe to say it bothers you?

Rumi: yea...

Zoey: You know its ok to still be a girl or something else entirely.

Rumi: But you said Celine was wrong for raising me as a girl.

Zoey realizes she should have phrased that better.

Mira: Rumi, I think what Zoey was trying to say is that Celine was wrong for taking the choice away from you. Not that it was wrong for you to be a girl at all.

Zoey: Sorry about that Rumi, I'm not some kind of terf.

Rumi: Whats a terf?

Zoey: You know what, why don't we talk about that another time, right now do you want Mira and I to give you your estrogen shot?

Rumi: You know how to do it?

Zoey: I used to do it for my little sister all the time until she got the hang of it.

Rumi: Your sister is trans?

Zoey, getting Rumi's estrogen ready: Yup, she doesn't like needles so she needed help with her meds. You know you can get progesterone too.

Rumi: What does that do?

Zoey: It makes your boobs bigger among other things. I'm sure your doctor would prescribe you some. Is that something you want?

Rumi nods head yes with vigor