46 Days Out From Phalloplasty
46 days! I feel like time is going slower the closer I get. :P I am still waiting on insurance approval so it has me feeling a bit anxious still. I have been contacting my case manager everyday to check and see if there has been a determination. Nothing yet, but any day now she says.
Yesterday as I was in electrolysis I was scrolling though my Instagram feed and couldn’t help but notice that all the people I knew when I was younger are all in a completely different stage of life. They are married, raising a family, going to church, and etc.. and although I may hope for that one day, right now I am on a journey to obtain my penis. I am busy using this time of my life to build up a base that most already have.
The thing that actually hurts, is that people don’t understand that these steps for me are necessary. As much as I wished they would understand and accept it, I know that I need to move on and realize they probably won’t ever understand, but that doesn’t affect my journey. I still know who I am and what I need and that is all that matters. I am still going to be just as stoked on surgery day with or without their understanding because this is my life and only I can walk this journey.
