#tqon

cardan needs to be a boy dad. and it has to be a boy, not a girl, because a girl would be like jude, but a boy would remind him of himself. a child as vulnerable and pure and in need of love as he was. i think that being in the same position that balekin and dain once were and having the oportunity to do what they did, but choosing to do different would heal something very deep inside of in him. one day after putting his baby boy to sleep he would whispery confess to jude that "i've always been taught that i was unlovable, but he's so much like me... and loving him is so easy".