#too chan

you took a deep breath as you looked in the mirror. “today is the day” you told yourself, as if you haven’t been telling yourself these four words for the past four months. you didn’t know how to bring yourself to tell chanhyuk, your friend of 5 years that you were in love with him.

it took you by surprise when you realized. you were just casually telling someone a story about him, only for it to hit you that you liked him as something more than a friend. he couldn’t help but be in awe with the idea that you really wanted to be something more than just friends.

you fixed your hair as you anxiously waited for your friend to knock on the door. you looked down at your outfit, fiddling with parts of it in hopes to make it look better. you heard chanhyuk’s gentle knock and you looked over. “come on in,” you smiled over at the door. you watched as the door opened slowly, chanhyuk looking over with a smile as you grinned over at him, patting the couch where you sat.

“join me,” he nodded and smiled at you. “you got it,” he giggled softly as he sat down next to you. you immediately wanted to speak but you got too nervous, soon enough you turned on the tv. “what would you like to watch?” you smiled at him as he grinned. “harry potter marathon?” he raised an eyebrow, looking hopeful as you nodded with a smiled, turning on the first movie.

you thought to yourself “perfect, that’s a whole twenty one hours to wait for the perfect moment,”. you kept ticking your hair as you thought and chan smiled over at you. “you alright? you seem to be more spacey today than usual,” you sighed and nodded with a small smile. “i’m alright,” he nodded as he smiled at you.

you kept spacing out, only for chan to look at you with a grin as you stretched out. “last movie!” you blinked and looked at the time. “a whole day has gone by already?” you looked in disbelief as he giggled at you. “uh huh, and there’s only two hours and ten minutes left,”

you blinked then thought, sudden courage with in you. “wait, channie, can we talk first?” he nodded, putting down the remote. he sensed that this was more serious than usual as he looked at you. “what’s wrong?” he fixed your hair quickly then smiled. “chan, i really like you, ive been meaning to tell you for four months, i just haven’t had the courage too. i don’t even know when i realized that i had a crush, it kinda just hit me,” you sighed a little then looked at him. “i’m sorry if this makes it awkward,”

Prior to arriving to the studio, you had gotten your hair and makeup done, so all you were doing was waiting in your dressing room, waiting for the producers to get you. You were looking over your lines when you heard a knock at your door. Getting up to open the door, you were met with a group of boys, whom you recognized as TOO. You motion for them to come inside your dressing room, not wanting them to awkwardly stand in the hallway. To say you were intimidated would be an understatement. You weren’t used to being around such big member groups. Once all of them managed to fill up the room, Jaeyun began to introduce the group. You awkwardly stood there as they bowed, slightly bowing towards them and introducing yourself as well.

“Hello, I’m Y/n.” Looking down the line of members, you’re able to put names to their faces, and you could tell that they felt slightly awkward.

“Sorry, if we’re interrupting you.” Jaeyun apologizes to you. Shaking your head no and waving your hands at them, you say, “No, no. You guys aren’t bothering me at all! If anything, this is a nice surprise.” Your words come out faster than you would’ve like, but you couldn’t help it when there was a group of good-looking boys in front of you, and it doesn’t help that you were an overall shy person.

“We heard that you were going to be the special MC and we wanted to say hello to our senior. We also brought you some flowers for you.” Chan hands over the flowers to you, and you timidly take it from his hands, thanking the members.

Honestly, you always thought it was weird when some groups called you their senior because in situations like this, all the members happened to be older you. Addressing them was always the hardest thing for you to do. Gaining enough courage, you tell them, “Ah, you guys don’t have to be so formal to me. I’d prefer it if you didn’t.” The 11 of you stand in your dressing room awkwardly looking around, not saying anything. Thinking that you should act like a senior to them, you say to them, “I know that you guys are going to do wonderful today. It may be intimidating competing with other senior groups, but if you guys focus on your performance, then you have nothing to worry about” Smiles pop up on their faces as they listen to your advice.

“Ah, thank you. We hope you enjoy our performance today,” Chan says to you. “Don’t worry, I’m sure I will.” With that the members bid you a goodbye, letting you do your final touchups before you are called to the stage.

When filming began, you were super nervous. Every time you did a filming, you would get nervous at the beginning, but towards the end you would loosen up a bit. You had quickly greeted ONEUS, the first group to perform, before you and Sungkyu walked up on the stage. As the two of you started off the recording, you explained that you were the special MC for the episode. Also explaining to the viewers how the show was going rank the performances and what the performance theme was for the episode. After that the cameras were cut as they showed the prerecording and you made your way off the stage to let Sungkyu introduce ONEUS.

Standing in front of the TV that showcased all the camera angles you watched ONEUS’ performance of Warrior’s Descent. Amazed by their performance, you tell them that they did a wonderful job as the get off the stage. One of the producers comes by and tells you to get ready soon to introduce TOO. As you mentally prepare yourself, you see the TOO boys get ready on the side of the stage. You shyly walk up to them, telling them that they’re going to great job, and before you can walk away, Chan catches your attention, the other members watching from behind, “Uh,” he bgins, scratching the back of his neck, “you’re going to do a good job out there as well.” You miss the chuckles the other nine members give him as you’re too busy focusing on the fact that your face is turning as red as his suit. Mumbling a soft thank you, you speedily walk away, a bit embarrassed by the interaction.

Going over your script again, you manage to catch Chan’s stare from his side of the stage, he gives you a sweet smile, which you return. Giving him a little thumbs up, you mouth the words, “Good luck.” A smile grows on his face, making his eye smiles appear, however, it disappears when the director yells for everyone to get ready, making the two of you focus on your jobs.

When the director yells action, a smile appears on your face as you introduce the rookie group. After introducing them, you walk off the stage to watch their performance. A gasp escaped your mouth when the members had dropped backwards onto each other’s laps and perfectly staying like that. You were really surprised when you realized they were performing Rising Sun by TVXQ. As the performance neared its end, you got back on the stage to make your closing remarks about them. After that was done, you saw the boys thanking the staff after their performance. They even went up to you to thank you. Complimenting them on their performance, you told them you enjoyed their performance and let them go on their way back to their dressing room.

Filming continued on like this, with you and Sungkyu switching on and off between introducing the different groups and you greeting them and watching their performances, and before you knew it, it was already time to announce the results. All seven groups had gathered by the stage, waiting for their results, but before you guys could announce them, you and Sungkyu had to interview some of the boys.

“Y/n?” Sungkyu calls your name, getting your attention, “You watched the performances, which group was the one that you liked the most?”

‘This isn’t on the script.’ Panic flashes in your eyes for half a second before you collect yourself. You can hear all the groups say their group names in attempt to be your answer, giggling when you see Jangjun from Golden Child waves his arms around. “Hmm, I think all the groups were wonderful today, but I do have to say that TOO was the best today.” For a group of rookies, you thought that their performance of Rising Sun was amazing. That they performed as if they’ve done it for years.

“Hm, is that so? Was there a particular member that caught your eye?” Sungkyu asked teasingly. Your face reddens from the question because there actually was a member that caught your eye, and throughout their performance, you couldn’t stop watching him, but you didn’t think that you’d have to admit it aloud. Looking off to the side where TOO were seated, you made eye contact with said member, but quickly turn away, embarrassed.

“Uh,” you timidly began, “there was actually. Chan-ssi’s stage presence really amazing. He dances very well.” Blushing, look down at the stage trying to avoid everyone’s stare on you. You sense Sungkyu turn towards the direction TOO were sitting. “Chan-ssi? Is there anything you want to say to Y/n?”

Looking up, you watch as Jaeyun hands the mic to Chan. There’s a hint of a blush on Chan’s face, but you assume that it’s from embarrassment. “Thank you for noticing me. I hope that as the show goes on, you’ll continue to support me and TOO.” Turning back towards the main camera, you miss the way Chihoon and Jisu teasingly mess with Chan. Continuing on with the actual script, you announce the rankings for the first round. You were happy to announce that TOO ranked fourth; for a newly debut group competing with senior groups, fourth place was pretty good.

After the recording ended, you and Sungkyu thanked the seven groups for their hard work. Getting off the stage, your initial thought was to get back to your dressing room quickly, but from the corner of your eye, you saw someone waving at you. It was Chan. Unmoving from your spot, you watch as he slowly approaches you, and before you knew it, he was standing there right in front of you. Not sure of what to say to him, you look down at your feet, still a bit embarrassed from admitting that he caught your attention in front of a bunch of people.

“Uh,” he starts, “I just wanted to say thank you again for picking my group and me.”

Looking up at him, you say to him, “Oh you don’t have to thank me. I meant everything I said, you guys were amazing.”

“Ah, thank you again.” Coughing could then be heard from behind Chan, you peek around Chan and see that the owners of said coughing were Kyunho and J.you. Missing the look Chan gives them that causes them to not so casually walk away, you bring your attention back to Chan.

“There was actually another reason why I came over to talk to you. This might be a bit bold for me to do, but I was wondering if I could get your number.” It takes you a second to process what he just said, “It’s fine if you don’t want to, I’d understand if you didn’t,” he adds.

“N-no, it’s fine. This was just a little bit unexpected is all, but yeah, I can give you my number.” The words tumble out of your mouth too quickly, and you’re unsure if Chan even understood you. However, when you hear him chuckle, and mumble what sounds to be, “Cute,” you can’t help but blush.

“Chan.” You hear Jaeyun call his name, motioning him to come over so that they can leave. Feeling rushed, you grab the pen that you made notes with on your script and scribble your number onto the palm of his hand. Gathering enough courage, you say to him, “I hope you’ll text me soon,” and before you could get a response from him, you rush back to your dressing room embarrassed.

“Jaeyun, I think I have a crush.” Chan admits to Jaeyun when he catches up to him. Jaeyun pats Chan on the shoulder, “Hmm, I wonder who it could be,” he says teasingly.