#todomatsu

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Started sometime in high school when his brothers began distancing themselves from each other

Did it in visible places with the intention of gaining some form of attention or comfort from his older brothers

Used thumbtacks, safety scissors, and sharpener blades

Was too scared to go deep, so there were no lasting marks

Now only cuts in very hidden places (inner thigh, inner upper arms)

Uses a small collection of cute boxcutters that he keeps very well hidden—even more hidden then his porn stash

Cleans and disinfects his injuries/blades to prevent unnecessary damage to his skin, but rarely bandages them for convenience

Doesn't do it very often, just whenever he's in very specific moods (after the mixer with Osomatsu is one example)

Runs a blog where he posts ‘aesthetic’ photos of his cuts and the cute razors he uses

Does it purely for the attention and sense of superiority he feels over the people that interact with his posts

Thinks all of his followers are either mentally sick weirdos or pretentious pricks with savior complexes—he hates both equally

On that note he is hypocritically very judgmental of anyone else who self-harms, believing that he is somehow different or more valid

This includes his own brothers if they were to also self-harm

Likes that the marks differentiate him from his brothers and give him a sense of control over his life

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