#toby's thoughts

the urge to come home to a guy and just not do anything but lay in his arms and talk is so FREAKING STRONG

I like to think and i'm sure that there are other people who have said this. But I think that Ilya is always chirping Hayden relentlessly is because he really respects and appreciates him and everyone else that he is always chirping because if you read all the books. Ilya is always there and chirping everyone but also quietly supporting all the other LGBTQ+ athletes. Then you get too Role Model with Troy Barrett and D**las K*nt and he does not give a single chirp or comment (Until Troy redeems himself and stops being friends with K*nt) Because he doesn't respect them because they are awful.

I really just need to find someone who isn't constantly trying to change something about me. I want a best friend with more. I want someone who loves ME. I want someone who gets excited about me when I'm not in the room. I want someone who loves me outside of filling a box so they can get attention. I want someone who I trust to love me even if I'm not in the room. I just want to find my person, and I want to be someone's person.

i need a friends with benefits situation but instead of fucking they just hold me and let me cry while telling me everything's gonna be okay.

Wake up!!! It's the first of the Month!!!!

bought a collar yesterday and i commissioned a custom tag for it!! I'M SO FREAKING EXCITEDDD

i think one of my friends is flirting with me and.... shit those flags are red but red's my favorite colorrrr

i have a job interview tomorrow...