#toaster thoughts

Okay so I skipped a week but I was travelling and I have been struggling a lot lately (how on brand for Mental Health Awareness Month…) so… ya know.

Who invented the technology in the toaster that won’t allow you to push the button down if it’s not plugged in? And like how long after toasters were invented, did someone invent that circuitry because so many people were tired of pressing the button down, walking away, and not coming back to toast because it wasn’t actually plugged in… 🍞

I just read a book that had a custom scrabble board with tiles made of sea glass and drift would and I want one soooooooo badly now

Ellen Burstyn is AMAZING. From SVU to Requiem for a Dream - she’s always fire.

Thanks to Tumblr and certain people here, honestly my next boyfriend better get ready now LOLOL The things I am learning… 😏

I saw a mourning dove in my tree last week and then saw another at the Brooklyn Botanic Garden this week. I grew up with a pair living in my trees, always having their babies in our yard. I feel like it’s a sign of something but of what I’m not sure. 🐦🌺

Losing one of your best friends to their own chaos is really hard. I’m trying to let go and just let what happens happen but it’s hard not to try to protect myself and push them away first.

With rifts and splits and weird vibes and bad juju, I worry I am going to lost contact with some amazing people I have met here. If we remotely talk or chat, you are important to me. Please know that and please reach out any time always. I am here. And let’s find a way to keep in touch outside of Tumblr in case anything ever happens. You are all important to me. Discord, IG, whatever. 📞

Everyone I know seems to be going through a deep loneliness these days and I’ve been lost in it as well. I mean everything I said above - I’m here.

September 9th 2019.

That was the date I posted an NCT fanfic on tumblr.com for the first time. It was a bullet-style headcanon fic on what I thought Lucas would be like as your best friend.

It's been almost two whole years since then. I've written thousands-upon-thousands of words, spent dozens of nights hunched over, squinting against the glare of a screen at 2am, and damn near yanked my hair out trying to write fanfiction. Damn, it's been a long-ass ride.

Whenever we'd go swimming, my mum would give me a five minute heads-up before we left the pool. Just before then though, I'd keep my head underwater for as long as possible because I refused to leave. Obviously, I did end up leaving, even though I didn't want to at all. My mum would always say, "All good things must come to an end." Honestly, that didn't mean shit to five-year old me, and I still sulked on the car ride home, but hey, now I can use it as a clever segue into me putting an end to my fanfiction account ten years later.

So, yeah, I'm ending this fun lil' expedition on kopikokun (formerly known as ncttoast).

I won't go into too much detail, but I hope all of you will respect my decision. Honestly, I fell out of K-Pop months ago, in fact, I'd even go as far as to say I lost interest from the beginning of 2021. I still adore writing and will absolutely continue doing it in my free time, but writing K-Pop fanfiction just isn't for me anymore. For personal reasons, I'll keep this blog up for the public to see, but from here on out, this'll be the last you hear of me (at least on kopikokun haha).

I wanna just thank everyone who's supported me for the past two years. All the likes, reblogs, sweet comments, asks, and people I've come across here have been nothing short of unflinchingly welcoming and kind (for the most part lol). In the past two years, I've amassed a grand total of over 1500 followers (or toasters, as I used to coin them lmaoo), which is bonkers. That's more than the entire population of my high school. Wack.

To the friends I've made along the way, here's a (-n imaginary; I can't drink) toast to all of you. I've loved interacting with each and every one of you so so much. You all have made this experience something out of this world. I hope that we can still remain in contact ^^ If you'd still like to keep in touch, here's my discord hehe: arin#6849

This post has been so unnecessarily dramatic, but I think that's very in character of me. Anyway, that's the gist of it lol

So, here's Arin, signing off with my final #toaster thought <3 love ya mwah mwah

p.s. if you could rb this, that would be very helpful haha