#thought processing

For the longest time, I’ve fought my averageness. I look in the mirror and because I don’t look like a model, I am ugly. Because I didn’t get As and A+s in school, I’m stupid. Same applies if I don’t instantly understand what is being said to me, which happens all the time because I often will process things slowly. Because I make mistakes at all, I never get anything right and am wholly a mistake. Every time I slip up, I come to the conclusion that I am simply unfit to be a human and completely valueless and I should just die. 

But then I think about other people. Other people whose looks aren’t stunningly gorgeous but I still consider beautiful and worth loving. Other people didn’t get straight As but I would still consider intelligent because it shows in nonacademic ways. Other people making mistakes every day because nobody is perfect. I think of all these people doing things in average ways, that do absolutely nothing to stand out. Yet, these totally average people stand to someone. Someone out there thinks the world of them. They’ve made someone else’s day in ways no one else could’ve. To someone, they’re the one person that will their secrets. And they won’t be this person to everyone they meet. But in their own average way, in their average world, they’re extraordinary in small ways. And maybe those ways won’t get to be put in the newspaper or announced at a graduation ceremony, but they are there. And someone sees it. 

You aren't greedy at all !

After talking with you and brainstorming different ideas, Reasons Within the Water will definitely have more than 1 chapter !

I will begin working on it shortly, and since it's your request, it will just be a surprise for anyone else interested 😉