#thisislifeincolor

 of course there are people who have it worse. There is always someone who has it worse than you but having it worse has nothing to with the mentality of it all. Someone could have the perfect life and still be so depressed that they don't see any other way out. When people are depressed there is only one thing on their mind and that's that there is no way in hell that there is ever going to be a better day. This can't be fixed without belief that there will be better day. Some people are so down in the dumps that they can't find the strength to find the hope or belief that things will get better and those are the people who find one way out and only one way out. Why live when there's no hope in anything getting better? There is no reason for them. They have no motivation for anything. It may be the weak way out the easy way out but honestly it's not. No one can easily kill themselves. No one in their right mind could ever kill themselves. it's a very hard thing to do. It has to take someone in a lot of pain for them to actually go through with it and it's sad that anyone would be going through that much pain to want to take their life.

I love how my boyfriend and I can get through anything together. He goes through so much shit and the negative aspect of the long distance relationship is that I can't comfort him like in a normal relationship. I can't physically be there for him, and hold him and tell him that everything is going to be okay. I have to try to make do with phonecalls and skype chats. But the times we are together is magical. There's nothing that can beat the feeling of actually getting to hold him and him hold me back. It's indescribable. It makes the time that we do share that much more special. I wouldn't give those times up for the world. I love how he sings me to sleep on the phone and makes me feel so safe when I sleep. My dreams are repeats of days together and my imagination conjuring up new adventures for us. When he smiles, my heart stops and I have to try to catch my breath because he's that perfect. He really is. and I love him. I love everything about him and everything that he does. He is mine and no one elses. and I'm proud of him for how he copes with everything and how much he has matured in the eight months we've been together. we can make it through anything. we're invincible.