#thisis2020

I started using Duolingo with my partner! We’re both learning Japanese, and so far since starting two days ago, I’ve learned a few nouns and articles. I’m finding that despite the app’s quick-learning method, I have a strong urge to write everything down. I need to visually and in some way kinetically connect with the words I’m learning. It helps knowing I can recognize most of the characters so far, but the fact I don’t know how to write some Hiragana down on paper is bothering me. I might just order a small notebook or something for all my linguistic adventures.

It’s been difficult getting up in the morning, and I’ve already taken a 30-minute nap today to make up for a crap night. For whatever reason, these last few nights haven’t been easy. Doesn’t help with the fact that the other night there was a double murder down the street from where I live. I’m talking about a 1/4 of a mile away. 

Last night I had nightmares that despite my best efforts, whatever money I had was stolen and my car got hijacked by someone who was convinced it was his car (even though it was parked in my driveway). Not sure if my brain is freaking out over how everything is in this weird limbo state where I can lose a lot in a matter of seconds, and have no power over the situation. I’ve been trying to let go of things beyond my control, and accept that throwing myself into despair won’t fix the problem of facing losses like this. Taking one day at a time is absolutely key.

I’m about to spend a good portion of this day setting up a commissions list, advertising on my media platforms, etc. I’m mentally pushing myself more to thinking that this is the perfect opportunity to get going on learning how to market myself and my artistic services, and work on personal projects to get them rolling. I’ll most likely start modeling client commissions from myself, and set up a good processing system. I’ll be sharing those updates soon!