Alright, so long post. Might as well keep scrolling. Possible triggers and food talk.
I ate the pepperonis from an earlier post (Haha auto correct turned that to kryptonite) Then literally PANICKED over the 200 cals. I lost it. I purged everything. I literally was going to cut, which I haven't done in 9 years, if I didn't purge.
Full on fucking freak out.
Why did the pepperoni trigger me so hard?
Hubs gave me $50 to get out of the house, sort of knowing im having a hard time, but not knowing what it's all about. Anyways, huge victory, I got out of the house alone without having a panic attack. Went to Walmart and got
Sugar free Russell Stovers truffles
I haven't had any chocolate yet. Not sure I will but will it trigger me too?
The white claws haven't...
Since when do I fucking have panic attacks over food? I was always the worst 'ana girl'. (No clue what that fucking means) Now im not struggling to fast/restrict... it scares me, but in a good way?
I feel like something snapped. It's different this time.
Anyways. Sorry this story didn't go anywhere.