i wish we could go back to when there were only 2 of us. back when we didn't know about the system. back when we could make ourselves small enough to not be a burden on anyone. maybe if we could go back to when our only concern was making sure my brother ate breakfast and had a lunch packed for school, and swimming lessons, and which book I wanted to read after mom brought us home from after school care, we would never go above 2 in the first place.
I wish we had never stopped being 2. maybe we would have needed the 3rd one of us by the time we reached college age, but before that we could have been fine just the first two, just Avery and Theta.
I wish we weren't So Obviously Too Much.














