#themigrainemermaid

When I’m in pain I get creative.

Shout out to jacksepticeye for being willing to talk about his illness and why he’s been absent from posting videos. 

I’ve seen a lot of celebs talking about their physical/mental health to their fans as of late and guys, this is SO important! One of my favorite sayings is that ‘You don’t get migraines until you GET migraines’ and this is so true not just for migraines but for anything health related. Especially these chronic, ‘invisible’ illnesses. They take a toll on EVERYTHING and you can’t help but feel guilty and alone in the struggle of it all.

So, just a shout out to people like jacksepticeye who are willing to say ‘Hey, this is what is going on with me and this is why I need to take a break for my health’. 

"Jesus, I've got the bastard kind," Dick said. "I'm sick." Dick often had headaches of migraine intensity---'the bastard kind.'" 

I head back to work tomorrow for the first time in two months and I’m an emotional wreck. I don’t know if I’m even going to be able to make it out of bed and to the shower without having a complete breakdown. Since my tachycardia event it’s like a switch has been triggered in my brain and all of the wiring is off. My panic/fear is at unprecedented levels, so much that I’m not sure I’m going to be able to sustain my job and that includes making it through tomorrows workday. The big question is though, is it worth my mental health? That’s what I’m struggling with. So many people have lost their jobs and here I am thinking about possibly throwing in the towel with mine but, I can’t find the proper words to explain it. When you’re fighting something constantly you just want a reprieve from it and yes, income is important but at what cost? What good is a paycheck when you’re in a despairing state? These are things I am having a constant back and forth with, and something I feel might very well be decided tomorrow.