#theatrical

When I hear the word dramatic, I think of gross overreactions, mascara tears, and people who instigate problems on purpose.

And honestly, I hate myself, but I dont do that stuff. I hold back tears until I burst. Im conflict AVOIDANT. I hate for anyone to see me cry, and I certainly dont pretend to be upset when im not. I pretend im not upset when I am!

But my friends and acquaintances all use 'dramatic' to describe me.

And, Im an ex-theater kid. I AM dramatic if you take it to mean theatrical. And I dont feel 'theatrical' is a bad thing.

But my brain chooses to purposefully misunderstand when people use that term to describe me. Im choosing, even doing mental gymnastics to believe they think I make my feelings everyone else's problem. In reality, they are talking about how I could wear a literal cape to Super 1 and make it look natural. (Which i could) ((and may have done)). I hear it most about my dance style. I still think of the bad meaning even when the good meaning makes so much more sense.