#theatrical

A Moment of Reflection

Over the past few years, I have had the privilege of building a world that has become one of the most meaningful parts of my life. Every story, every character, every livestream, every article and every conversation has been created with genuine care, curiosity and gratitude for those who have chosen to spend their time with it.

Recently, however, I have found myself reflecting on where I am creatively and emotionally.

The passion to create has never disappeared. If anything, it remains as strong as ever. What has become more difficult is carrying that passion through long periods where the journey can feel very quiet. Like many creators, there are moments when I wonder whether the work is reaching the people it was always meant to reach.

That reflection has led me to spend some time considering what the future of this project should look like. No decisions have been made, and I am not writing this to seek sympathy or persuade anyone to respond. I simply believe that honesty has its place, and I have always wanted to be open with those who have chosen to follow this journey.

Whatever lies ahead, I remain incredibly proud of everything that has been created so far. This world has introduced me to remarkable ideas, taught me countless lessons, and given me opportunities to grow as both a storyteller and a person. For that, I will always be grateful.

To everyone who has watched a video, joined a livestream, explored the Wiki, or simply taken a moment to see what I have been building, thank you. Your time is something I never take for granted, and your support has meant far more than you may ever realise.

For now, I am simply taking time to reflect carefully, thoughtfully and honestly on where the journey goes from here.

New article uploaded to the Lord of War & Heartache/Tales of the Caravan Wiki, the City of Peveril:

When I hear the word dramatic, I think of gross overreactions, mascara tears, and people who instigate problems on purpose.

And honestly, I hate myself, but I dont do that stuff. I hold back tears until I burst. Im conflict AVOIDANT. I hate for anyone to see me cry, and I certainly dont pretend to be upset when im not. I pretend im not upset when I am!

But my friends and acquaintances all use 'dramatic' to describe me.

And, Im an ex-theater kid. I AM dramatic if you take it to mean theatrical. And I dont feel 'theatrical' is a bad thing.

But my brain chooses to purposefully misunderstand when people use that term to describe me. Im choosing, even doing mental gymnastics to believe they think I make my feelings everyone else's problem. In reality, they are talking about how I could wear a literal cape to Super 1 and make it look natural. (Which i could) ((and may have done)). I hear it most about my dance style. I still think of the bad meaning even when the good meaning makes so much more sense.