#the15yearshow

Dean: I was so traumatized about losing Cas in Purgatory, my brain made up false memories so I could blame myself rather than dealing with how he pushed me away because he felt he needed to do penance and stay in monster hell.

Cas: Unfortunately I believe my crush on Dean is one-sided. I will nobly pine forever.

Dean: I’m going to yellow crayon Cas down from brainwashing, on my knees to show my love, and tell him how much I love him. The original script draft is going to say “I love you” but it will be changed during filming.

Cas: But does Dean love me?? 

Dean: I’m going to invite Cas out for a cheeseburger date.

Cas: Not now Dean we’re very busy with serious angel business. 

Dean: I’m going to kick a door down, after racing frantically to find Cas across several states, torturing demons, just to get here in time to save him, only to be too late and I’m going to cry out Cas’s name and my voice will shake with emotion and when it turns out he’s okay I’m going to yell at him for scaring me.

Cas: I should probably continue to  repress more, for I am in love with someone who is not in love with me

Dean: Despite being under the influence of a magic curse mark that makes me uncharacteristically violent, I won’t be able to kill Cas, because the love between us is so strong.

Cas: But does he love me...*pines*

Dean: When Cas is under a magic spell that brainwashes him into attacking me I’m going to fend him off without hurting him and when he collapses as he’s freed from the magic spell, I’m going to keep touching him and cradle his face in my hands and stare at him with worry and love and tenderness.

Cas: Love is ineffable, it is enough just to love, even if Dean doesn’t love me back.

Dean: Cas is possessed by Lucifer, this is awful, I’m going to spend half a season on a mission to save Cas, and the divine feminine is literally going to use Cas’s heart to triangulate on my location.

Cas: Oh, the plight of an angel helplessly in love with a human. 

Dean: I’m going to act jealous when Cas’s ex is in town and refuse to give up on him when he’s dying. Again.

Cas: I’m going to tell Dean I love him only when I’m dying so I don’t have to deal with the consequences of my words.

Dean: Here's a mixtape I made, hours of work, of songs from my favorite band of all time, just for Cas, we're better together.

Cas: I wonder if Dean loves me. Here is your mixtape back, Dean. 

Dean: FML

Cas: I am in love with someone I can't have, woe, I think I'll go repress some more and also run away from him because I think I’m doing the right thing and then die. Again.

Dean: I’m going to mourn Cas like a widower. I will yell at God to bring him back. When I get him back another way triggered by the power of my grief and love, I’m going to make him dress up like a cowboy and talk to him about our movie dates.

Cas: I will pine, pine forever, helplessly...

Dean: Cas and I are going to break up like an old married couple having a divorce and I’ll lash out in my hurt because God was messing with my life and I don’t know what’s real any more what if what’s between me and Cas was never real this is the worst thing ever FML.

Cas: Dean no longer cares about me. I’lll just go now.

Dean: I’m going to take Cas’s calls even though I supposedly am done with him and I’m going to accept him back despite our conflicts not being resolved. Then during our return trip in Purgatory I’m going to fall to my knees, praying and crying, because I’m scared I’m going to lose him forever, again.

Cas: Okay I actually heard that. But I don’t know if Dean loves me back.

Dean: I’m going to act like Cas is my husband and I’m so relieved that we reconciled after a trial separation.

Cas: I must save Dean from Death personified, so I’m going to give myself up to the deal I made to save the son we raised together and summon The Empty to take me by fully confessing the immense depth of my love for Dean even though he doesn’t love me back and then die. Again. So I don’t have to deal with the consequences of my words.

Dean: *sobbing on the floor* FML. Cas: Time to remake heaven for Dean, who I shall pine over forever.

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there was no alternative ending, but “there was another resolution for Cas”;

“we can’t talk about the bury your gays trope until the finale”, but Cas is gay and he doesn’t come back and apparently was never meant to;

there were some things cut off the confession scene both from Cas’ and Dean’s reactions, but none of them was enough to add the context for the “rogue translator” to do their job damn well and put the “me too” out there;

Evil Corp is a huge network, but it was just one (1) heller translator that did all the work and he never needed any approval or proofreading;

Jensen/Dean wanting to tackle Cas, but it never being about Dean reciprocating in any way;

Jensen is silent, but for all the different kinds of reasons;

Danneel is silent, but it has nothing to do with her being the Ultimate Cas girl and also the wife of one (1) furious with the finale man;

Cas was never supposed to be in the finale, but Jimmy Novak did;

Misha never quarantined for the finale, but he just happened to chill in the room with a view on Vancouver landscapes and mountains at the same time we would if he was quarantining for the finale;

Misha never came back to shooting, but he knew what was going on on set while shooting Dean’s death scene;

everyone is happy with the ending, but the core cast never said their goodbyes with no reason at all;

Misha didn’t say his official goodbye even after the finale and never reacted to the fundraising initiatives (and we know how proud he is of us), just dropped one (1) article about rancid nuts, but the minute we fuck both Twitter and Tumblr up with #theysilencedyou he has the whole speech prepared?

Let’s talk about why Dean’s bisexuality mattered beyond people wanting to see their favorite characters finally together. Because yes, it really was about so much more.