#the kicker

Maybe it's love and timings up to heaven

it's such an ostensibly simple lyric but "i blocked the user but she made a new one" has been ringing through me ever since i first heard it: i have never heard that experience put to music. my library is full of more queer songs than my high school self could've imagined & yet it's still a struggle to find their life represented because barely a fraction of that is about a woman being abusive

i’ve been contemplating resolutions /deleted playlists but she made a new one

no but do you get it. it's snowing for the second time this winter i'm glad i didn't but i wish i kissed her and i've been contemplating resolutions i blocked the user but she made a new one i'm at a loss why i still can't hate her the lines i've crossed for a perfect stranger maybe i'm sick and i need an obsession maybe it's love and the timing's up to heaven if it's as real as it feels wouldn't she be here still and my friends say ain't that the kicker well there's a ghost in these walls she says nothing at all but there ain't a single day i don't feel her now every stone has turned you're a lesson learned and i'm one that you get to work through oh how dare you say this ain't easy for you you get to fall asleep in a bed with a girl who chose you.