hurts

they couldn’t have given the percussion section one chair to sit on?

not one?

so we wouldn’t have to stay standing up

my fave thing to do

            green eyes are staring at the worn moving picture , reflecting back on their relationship that seems ages ago . cedric and himself have never gotten any of their pictures taken , have they ? could it be that they were so much of a secret that they hadn’t meant to risk it ? no . hans remembers holding hands while he’s studying as cedric talks and talks with his friends at the great hall . it wasn’t obvious — but it wasn’t discrete , either . perhaps cedric has respected hans’ privacy enough not to publicise them . or maybe ... it was cedric himself — ashamed , maybe ? to admit that he was dating hans ? no ... that doesn’t sound like cedric . he can’t allow himself to believe that .

             ah , there’s one . it was back when they were fourteen years old . collin creevey , was the name of the first year ? he learnt how cedric was popular , and recognised how hans was a prince . all three of them took a quick picture then ... but they never really saw those again . and colin , last hans hears ... — he swallows , looks back at the other man . right . he has to spew lies now . smile a little , shake that head .   ❛      nonsense . on the contrary to popular’s belief , i hadn’t strangled potter when he told me so .       ❜      he goes to psych ward too , you know ? secretly though . that’s how we met . that’s how i learnt to forgive him for putting you in danger all those years ago , remember ? i still have nightmares . they’re better now . you don’t die as frequently . hans grips the briefcase a little closer to his side .  

         ❛      nothing . it’s just —      ❜   lie :      ❛       hospital reviews . what they’ve allowed released . i’d like to show you how i made wonderful progress . perhaps to thank you , as well .      ❜     i built an empire for us , i wanted to show you what i got so far . so you’d be proud of me . i can provide for you now . for the both of us . please love me again ?    ❛     it’s boring notes . i realise now maybe it isn’t appropriate to flaunt how depressed i truly was in the light of your most recent happy news .      ❜