GHOST OF US
summary: you run into your ex inside the games
parings: thanos/choi su-bong x f!reader
warnings: angst, typical squid game stuff, death, swearing, drug addiction
The second you saw him, your heart stopped.
It wasnât just the familiar faceâit was the memories, the pain, the betrayal that came rushing back all at once. Su-Bong.
You ducked behind a group of players, keeping your head down as the crowd milled around after the massacre of Red Light, Green Light. Blood still stained the dirt. People were sobbing. Some were in shock. And then there was him.
He stood out like he always didâshoulders squared, chin high, an air of unbothered arrogance even in the face of death. He was scanning the crowd, as if looking for someone.
As if looking for you.
You turned, ready to slip away, but it was too late.
âOh my god! SeĂąorita!â
His voice rang out, loud and unabashedly thrilled, like you were old friends who had just run into each other at a cafĂŠ instead of exes trapped in a nightmare.
Before you could react, his arms wrapped around you, pulling you against his chest in an embrace that was far too warm, far too easy.
âIs that really you, baby?â
You shoved at his chest, barely managing to put space between you. âGet away from me, Su-bong.â
âBaby, itâs Thanos now, remember?â He grinned like that name didnât make your stomach churn.
âOf course, I fucking remember that stupid fucking name.â Your glare was sharp, your chest heaving.
His grin only widened. âSo feisty. Just like I remember.â
You wanted to hit him. Wanted to scream. But more than anything, you wanted to get the hell away from him.
âI have nothing to say to you,â you bit out, turning on your heel.
But before you could disappear into the sea of players, his voice stopped you.
âI missed you, you know.â
You froze.
He said it so casually, like it was nothing. Like he hadnât ruined everything.
You didnât turn around. You didnât give him the satisfaction.
Instead, you walked away, ignoring the way your heart pounded, ignoring the ghost of his touch still lingering on your skin.
But what you didnât realize was that Thanos wasnât going to let you slip away so easily.
Not this time.
The second game was hell.
The Six-Legged Pentathlon had left you gasping for air, your legs burning, your heart pounding so hard it felt like it might burst. But you survived. You and your team had scraped through by sheer will, and when the final whistle blew, relief crashed over you like a wave.
Thanos spotted you before you saw him. His eyes lit up, and in seconds, he was running toward you, arms outstretched like a lover reunited after war.
âIâm so glad you made it, babe.â
You barely had time to react before he was right there in front of you, grinning like an idiot.
âFuck off, Su-bong.â
He pouted but didnât back away. âCome sit with me, Thanos will protect you.â
âI said fuck off!â
But he didnât. Instead, his fingers wrapped around your wrist, tugging you close, his touch hot against your skin.
âBaby, no,â he cooed, eyes locking onto yours like he could sweet-talk you into anything. âIâve been calling you since we broke up. Youâve been dodging my calls.â
You snorted. âI blocked your number, you idiot.â
His smirk faltered. For a second, just a second, you saw something raw flicker across his face.
âBaby, I was going to jump off the Han River Bridge.â
You stiffened.
His grip on your wrist didnât tighten, but you felt it like a noose around your throat.
âI couldnât go on without you,â he continued, voice too light, too casual for a confession like that. âThen some dude gave me a business card. Same one you got, I assume. And now weâre here together. Itâs like fate.â
You swallowed hard, shaking your head. âIâm here because of you. Iâm in debt because of you, Su-bong.â
His gaze softened, but you werenât sure if it was guilt or something else.
âYou were really going to jump?â you asked, the words barely a whisper.
He nodded. âI was, babe. âCause I lost my fucking perfect angel baby, and you were the only thing worth living for.â
Your stomach twisted.
âDonât be so stupid, Su-bong,â you muttered. âYou have plenty to live for.â
His lips curled, something dark and amused in his expression.
âLike what?â
You froze.
You actually didnât know.
He lost his fame. Had no money. His family had cut him off.
He had nothing.
âExactly,â he whispered, smiling down at you like it was funny.
Dinner was quiet. Too quiet.
The room buzzed with murmured conversations, but none of it reached you. You sat alone, barely touching the bland rice and cold soup in front of you, stomach twisting from the weight of the day. People had died. Some in an instant. Some screaming.
And yet, here you were, expected to eat, expected to sleep, expected to go on like it was normal.
A shadow loomed over you before a tray clattered onto the bed.
âYou look lonely, angel.â
You tensed at the voice, at the way Thanos slid into the bed beside you like he belonged there. He nudged your tray toward you, his eyes scanning your untouched food.
âEat,â he ordered.
âIâm not hungry.â
He clicked his tongue, grabbing your spoon and scooping up some rice. âEat,â he repeated, pushing it toward your lips.
You glared at him, but when he didnât back down, you reluctantly took a bite. It tasted like nothing, but he watched you chew, satisfied, before setting the spoon down.
âThatâs my girl.â
You hated how warm his voice was, how easily he slipped back into old habits.
Hated how, when your vision blurred with tears, he was the one who pulled you against his chest.
âI got you, baby,â he murmured, stroking your hair. âI got you.â
That night, he stayed close.
His arm was draped over your waist, his body curled protectively around yours. You werenât sure how you ended up like thisâwhether it was his doing or yours. Maybe both. But in that moment, as the room buzzed with tension and quiet sobs, you let him hold you.
Just for tonight.
The next game was Mingle.
The moment the rules were explained, panic set in.
You scrambled, moving through the crowd, grabbing onto shoulders, onto sleeves, searching for anyoneâanyoneâto take you in. Every door shut too fast, groups locking themselves in just in time.
The number dwindled.
Four.
Then three.
Then two.
And suddenly, you were alone.
Your chest heaved, your eyes darting around the room, searching, pleadingâ
A rough hand grabbed your wrist.
Before you could react, you were being yanked, dragged across the floor, shoved into a room.
Two people inside barely had time to protest before Thanos kicked them out, slamming the door shut just as the final buzzer went off.
Silence.
You were safe.
Alive.
Because of him.
Your breath came out shaky as you looked at him, his chest rising and falling, his grip still firm on your wrist.
âYou saved me.â
âIâll always save you, seĂąorita.â
You werenât sure how to feel about that.
Back at the bunks, Thanos sat beside you in silence.
For once, he wasnât pushing, wasnât smirking. Just⌠waiting.
Then, finallyâ
âIâll get clean.â
Your head snapped toward him.
âIâll do it for you,â he said. âI miss you. You mean more to me than any drug, and I fucked up so badly last time.â He exhaled, his hands curling into fists. âGive me another chance, baby. Please.â
You stared at him, searching his face for lies, for manipulation.
But all you saw was desperation.
âIâm not making promises in here,â you said quietly. âI could be dead tomorrow.â
He flinched.
âBut if we make it out alive,â you continued, âIâll consider giving you a second chance. But one wrong move, and Iâm gone. Forever. Understood?â
âUnderstood,â he nodded.
And for the first time in years, you thought maybeâjust maybeâhe meant it.
That night, he was killed.
A fork. A fucking fork to the neck in the bathrooms.
You heard the commotion. Heard the shouts, the panicked gasps. But by the time you got there, he was already slumped against the wall, blood pooling beneath him.
You stood frozen at the entrance of the bathroom, the metallic scent of blood thick in the air.
Thanosâ body twitched, his fingers weakly grasping at the wound in his neck, as if he could stop the blood from spilling out. His breaths were shallow, his eyes unfocused, struggling to find you in the dim light.
You shouldâve walked away.
Shouldâve turned your back, let him bleed out, let fate finish what it started.
But your feet carried you forward.
You crouched beside him, pressing your trembling hands against his chest as if that could do anything.
His lips curved into the smallest smirk. âAngelâŚâ His voice was nothing more than a breath.
âShut up, Su-bong,â you hissed. âSave your fucking strength.â
His eyes softened, a sadness settling in them that you werenât ready for.
âWasnât⌠supposed to end like this,â he murmured. âNot before Iââ He coughed, blood slipping from the corner of his mouth. âNot before I proved it to you.â
Your throat tightened.
He meant getting clean. He meant being better.
But now⌠now he was dying.
And you couldnât stop it.
You swallowed hard, shaking your head. âWho did this?â
Thanosâ bloody hand grasped yours.
âDoesnât matter,â he whispered. âJust⌠just get out of here, okay? Win this thing.â His grip weakened. âLive.â
Your breath hitched.
And then, just as suddenly as he had crashed back into your life, he was gone.
The rise and fall of his chest stilled. His fingers went slack. The light in his eyes flickered out.
You stared.
There was no relief. No satisfaction.
Only a hollow ache, one that settled deep inside you, twisting and festering like an open wound.
You reached out, brushing a hand over his bloodstained cheek, your vision blurring.
You shouldâve hated him. Shouldâve felt nothing.
But instead, you felt everything.
And you hated him for that too.
With a shaky breath, you stood up, stepping back, leaving him there.
You didnât look back. You couldnât.












