It's a bit long, but I like long chapters so I figured other people might as well š ~~~~~~~~ He was kissing me with a kind of desperation I'd never felt from him before, as though he was trying to devour me. To possess me completely, his hands were everywhere at once. I could hear him, his breathing hard and fast, he was almost growling, it was making me dizzy, my clothes were coming off at lightening speed and he did the same to his own. He lay down onto his back and held out a hand, waiting for me to take it and climb onto him. "Cmon baby..." he murmured, I nodded breathlessly and I grasped it and steadied myself as I got up on the bed and ever so slowly eased myself onto his hardness. I softly moaned as he filled me completely and I heard him hiss under me, closing his eyes in pleasure, I could feel his cock twitching deep inside me and I felt his whole body tense as he struggled to stay in control. It always surprised and pleased me that I made him feel this way, I stared at him mesmerized, his beauty always struck me anew, my heart pounded in my chest as the realization that he loved me hit me with full force. His eyes opened and he frowned, "what's wrong do you want to stop?" he said his voice low and husky, I quickly shook my head, "no.. no I'm just, I like looking at you" I stammered. His face broke into a smile and I instantly felt my heart started doing backflips again, the butterflies in my stomach coming to life. I moaned softly and started to move, slowly, wanting it to last forever. His hands were on my hips holding them while pushing his up sliding deeper into me with each thrust. I groaned as he moved my hips faster, pushing me on. I was spinning out of control, when I felt his fingers slide into my folds and over my clit, this was all I needed. It tipped me over the edge and I cried out as my orgasm shook me to my very core. He moved faster now and I felt him give one final hard thrust and he came, stilling inside me as his body shook, his breathing fast, a low groan coming from him. I fell onto his chest, laying there listening to his heart pound. A few minutes passed and I slowly got off him and fell onto my back, my eyes closing, feeling exhausted. We lay there for a while, quietly, wrapped up in a cocoon of satisfaction. I felt his hand come up to rest on my stomach. "Harper.." he whispered, "mmmm?" I murmured not opening my eyes, I was happily lying there on the cusp of awake and asleep. He grasped my chin and turned my head back to face him, "remember I asked you, in London about, your family?" he said gently, I kept my eyes closed slowly shaking my head, "that's exactly what you did then, but I want you to tell me, I want to know, i want to know everything about you, don't hide anything from me... " he said. "What difference does it make, it's not important, not to me...." I said softly, I opened my eyes and my hand reached up and cupped his cheek. "Please, I want to know" he said curiously, I stared at him. "Not all family's are like yours Jared, you were lucky" I said sharply, I could tell he was instantly regretting his question, "I'm sorry, I just..." he started trying to apologize. I exhaled frustratedly, "You really want to know? Okay I'll tell you and then I don't want to talk about it again" I said, he nodded not saying a word. "My parents were from old money, do you know what that means?" I asked, he nodded again, I took a deep breath and continued, "he was a banker and she was a broker, so when they weren't working they partied hard, then they decided they'd better have a child, just to make sure they had achieved everything" I injected as much sarcasm as I could to that comment then continued, "but I was just one more possession they acquired. The nanny looked after me and they continued their party, I got lots of gifts and everything I could possibly want, but I never had them around, they were too busy to raise a child. They died in a boating accident in the South of France when I was 9, my aunt looked after me after that" I finally smiled at that memory, "she was brilliant, she was old school, really strict but made me feel loved like I'd never felt before, she died when I was 19, my terrace, that was hers she left it to me, I'll never live anywhere else, it's the only place I ever really felt any love, any sense of home and ... family I guess....yeah it wasn't tragic I suppose, they left me money which I'm grateful for because I can do what I do now and not have to worry about surviving, it's not as bad as some, I know, I wasn't abused but I was neglected by the people who were supposed to have loved me unconditionally, I was never of any real importance to them" I trailed off, I chanced a quick glance at him, and saw the pity on his face, I quickly continued, "don't give me that look of pity, I'm okay and it made me realize that you shouldn't rely on anyone for your happiness, I never have and I never... I never want to... that's just asking for trouble, so that's it, that's all there is to know really" I said quietly. He stared at me, he hadn't uttered a word the whole time I'd been talking, just listened and he continued to stay silent. It started to make me feel uneasy, "Say something" I said. "I was always kind of jealous of the rich kids.." he finally spoke, I shook my head wryly, "well now you know, they were probably jealous of you, I know I am, listening to your childhood" I said with a shrug. "I'm sorry, I know.." he started to say, I held up a hand, "please don't, honestly, I'm over it, I had therapy, I've moved on" I said sharply, he nodded slowly. I lay down again and stared up at the ceiling, the last few days had made me feel like I'd been through an emotional wringer. I felt his fingers trail down the side of my face and across my neck. "When I came to London and you told me what happened, something shifted for me, I felt something I'd never felt before.." he said gently. "I know, Jared you told me" I said softly opening my eyes and smiling at him. He shook his head, "no, no, listen to me, the...baby.." he said, I shook my head. "I don't want to talk about it please" I said shaking my head. "Do you ever feel like, you want your own family, that will love you unconditionally?" he said carefully, "I don't think anyone can ever love you like that" I said smiling but shaking my head, he frowned, "you're not listening and that's not true, babies love their parents.." he said. I shrugged, "I suppose they do" I agreed. "Of course they do, they are born to love their mom and dad" he said, "I guess so" I said. "Are you paying attention to what I'm saying?" He said slowly, he had grasped my face and was looking into my eyes. "Yes" I said feeling confused, i stared at him for a moment, his beautiful blue eyes staring into mine. My fuzzy brain suddenly becoming clear and finally understanding what it was he was trying to tell me. The laughter bubbled up out of me, "you're crazy" I said finally, I laughed, I waited for his face to break into that panty melting grin, but alarmingly, it didn't. His face wore the same expression, he didn't laugh, he looked... curiously disappointed. "I'm serious Harper..." he said quietly, "think about it". "Are you being funny?! Don't be ridiculous!" I scoffed, moving to get up. "Cmon Harper, please think about it? Just think about it" he said pulling me back onto the bed. "Don't be silly Jared, we barely even know each other, we've been seeing each other a few months, are you?....I'm not even continuing this conversation" I shook my head and tried to get up. Before I could move, he climbed over and sat astride me, leaning down he started kissing me, his tongue diving into my mouth, leaving us both panting when he broke off. He trailed kisses down to my breasts, his tongue lazily licking the rosy tips in turn. I instantly started growing impatient with need, he teeth suddenly caught my nipple, biting it hard, I grabbed his hair pulling it and crying out. I heard him chuckle, he moved up again kissing me and biting my lip, "you love it" he whispered. "Asshole!" I screeched trying to push him away, he grabbed my arms and putting them up over my head. "No you don't, now, open up for me" he growled, his knees moving between my thighs, I obeyed him without hesitation, in one swift thrust he entered me, his eyes closing, and he exhaled softly. He moved again, I cried out, my legs wrapping around his waist, "say yes" he groaned, "faster" I begged, ignoring him, this only made him go slower, he was driving me insane. "Please Jared faster" my nails raking down his back, his hair falling around my breasts. "Shhhhh" he said smiling, I threw my head back groaning with need. "Okay baby" he chuckled, he started moving faster, this didn't last long and I felt him suddenly pulled out, I cried out in protest, "I want you on your hands and knees, now" he demanded, stopping and forcing me to turn over. He grabbed my hips and pulled me onto him, fucking me harder until I climaxed, crying out. I felt him come, a deep guttural groan escaping him, he thrust hard one final stab, pouring himself into me. I slowly dropped onto my front on the bed and within minutes I had fallen asleep, totally exhausted. I had no idea how long had passed, when I felt Jared shaking me gently, "wake up sleepy" he said, I turned over stretching. I felt a his fingers run down the middle of my body. "Do you remember what we talked about before?" he whispered in my ear, I was barely awake and I murmured, "don't be silly" I smiled my eyes still closed. "Say yes..." he said in a low sexy drawl his fingers drawing patterns around my nipples. I shook my head, my eyes opened, "you're forever horny" I said smiling, he grinned eyebrows raising, "guilty as charged, now do you want dinner or do you want to stay here and screw?" he said grinning. "That's not fair cause I want both!" I said giggling. "Okay if we go now we can have dinner and come back here for dessert" he said wickedly raising his eyebrows again. I sighed happily as he dragged me up and off the bed, I laughed nodding agreeably. The sleepy conversation now totally forgotten.
