"Being stuck in here" "You can't write the ending this time"
The setup for him to disprove that he cannot leave the situation he has felt trapped in for the past 5 seasons. The queer double meanings of these lines that he will disprove.
You can't write the ending this time speaks to a lack of choice. That he cannot simply choose to leave, he cannot escape. That he is trapped forever now in a decision he made when he was 12 years old.
But that's not true. He can leave it. He does have autonomy, and his choice do impact things. Yes, he is trapped.
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i fucking LOVE citing my sources. i love sending people links to resources for every need they may have or situation that arises. i love whipping out a physical book in the middle of conversation whenever that book is mentioned and referring to it directly. i like my reference lists/bibliographies to be at least as long if not longer than the work itself. formatting sources to fit a style guide and arranging them in the appropriate order makes me feel alive. i love being able to back up claims with evidence and tie media iāve consumed into every discussion.
Iām so sorry Short Martin enjoyersā¦. I love and respect you, I think all your art and writing is delicious and I eat it up every time. But I do not believe you.
(HOWEVER I have seen no textual evidence saying Jon has to be short. Tall Jon enjoyers, I believe you.)
more thoughts navigating TVL as a lover of the books and the show. thinking about rice's female vampires and the post-gender umbrella.
in the vampire chronicles, rice incorporates female play incognito, mediated through powerful male protagonists. even though the vampires are considered post-gender, the vampires who were female when mortal still tend to carry an external weight more than the males. gabrielle pushes past most of the suffering and takes a shorter internal journey to discover what she wants (and thatās why I love her).
the male vampiresā experiences are easily female coded in content because rice has said many times in so many words that she infuses the characters with her own experience. the books focus heavily on rejecting societal norms. the male vampires however are afforded the privilege to do what men have always had more time to do which is fall apart, and then find enlightenment, or end it on their own terms. simultaneously, rice illustrates the bad things actual men do and the catastrophic violence of men, before they find enlightenment or decide on death.
the female vampires tend to carry the burden of eternity but also keep it together for the most part. both are tragic burdens but they show up differently in the mortally defined genders even after turning. I tried to name one developed female vampire character who ended it themselves and couldnāt think of one. maybe it happened and someone on here remembers it. the old world vampire throws herself into the fire in the show but that doesn't happen in the book.
there is space for more show watchers to engage with the books further and explore the commentary that is present. we know anne rice wrote from total instinct and did extensive historical research. she was unapologetic about her work, even if there were times that it might have been appropriate for her to be apologetic. the show just seems to be apologizing for a lot of the wrong things.
i want to add that all of this isn't to negate the queer theory/activism reading which aligns academically with the post-gender context. the exception being some schools of thought position post-gender as being originally born to post-gender society whereas most of rice's vampires hold on to their mortal history. rather, in this particular literary context, it forces a larger umbrella where more progressive contemporary feminist theory and overarching gender theory are fused with queer theory. it represents post-gender as the ultimate transcendent state after a mortal life lived within norms. for rice's vampires, the ones that shed their human constraints and move toward post-gender, tend to have a longer shelf life.
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the post above expanded on the post below
food for thought as a lover of the books and the show.
i love analyzing anne rice's chronicles so much. one angle i most often come from is, while she writes the dominant characters of this series as "male," we get this rich speculative post-gender narrative that incorporates beauty, aesthetics, and maximalism through radically free thinking coming from a female author who is searching to define herself and major structures through her characters. everything is female coded and there are so many interpretations. listen, i watch the show. i enjoy the show. but damn, do you think i have my female narrative analysis brain switched on while watching it? no, i'd go nuts. then i think about it later and this major blind spot in the show breaks my heart. the lack of this lens has been present since the first season. i mean, i probably built some of my framework around being a woman reading anne rice as a teenager. rice was radical about the female body, femininity, and female interiority through her writing for her time. for any time really. the show isn't thinking on that level or through those lenses from anything i've seen. a lot of groups are represented, which i love about the show. however, i notice that the show isn't engaging in rice's female narrative lens that makes her work so radical.
Comrades: Final Fantasy X is not just a game about fighting monstersāit's a masterclass in revolutionary theory, a devastating critique of theocratic authoritarianism, and an allegory for how the ruling class gaslights the working class into accepting endless suffering as āfate.ā
So grab your oversized sword, your blitzball that you use as a weapon(???), and your deeply suppressed class rageāitās time to deconstruct the class struggle of Spira.
šļø Yevon: The Union of Church and State
The Church of Yevon holds totalitarian control over Spira. It is both government and religion, ensuring that there is no distinction between political power and divine mandate. It upholds its rule.
Manufactured crisis & fearmongering ā Sin, an unstoppable force of destruction, keeps the population in a constant state of fear, ensuring their reliance on Yevon. (Sound familiar?).
Banning progress ā The church forbids machina (advanced technology) to keep the masses dependent on archaic traditions. Meanwhile, the ruling class in Bevelle enjoys all the benefits of technology, proving their "anti-machina" stance is pure hypocrisy.
Rigid class structures ā The Maesters (bourgeoisie) send summoners (working class) to their deaths, brainwashing them to martyr themselves for "peace." Meanwhile, the elite sit comfortably, untouched by suffering.
The Illusion of Salvation ā The Final Summoning is a scam. It kills the summoner, destroys Sin temporarily, and the cycle starts again. The system exists to sustain itselfānot to fix anything.
The Church of Yevon gaslights an entire civilization into believing that suffering is noble, poverty is virtuous, and only the ruling class can "save" them.
ā”ļø Tidus: The Outsider-Turned-Revolutionary
At the start, Tidus is completely disconnected from Spiraās struggle. He is, effectively, the apathetic outsiderāyour average "Iām not political" guy.
He just wants to go home (apathetic bystander).
He notices things arenāt adding up (early-stage radicalization).
Then he realizes the entire system is a lie and refuses to accept it (fully radicalized revolutionary).
By the end, he helps dismantle the entire oppressive power structure.
Tidusās journey is a lesson in waking up to systemic oppression and actively fighting back against it.
š§ The Al Bhed: Radicalized Revolutionaries in Exile
The Al Bhed are Final Fantasy Xās equivalent of anarchist resistance fighters.
They reject Yevonās control.
They embrace "forbidden" technology.
They actively rescue summoners from being sacrificed.
They challenge the idea that suffering is necessary.
For this, they are vilified, hunted down, and treated as dangerous radicals. The ruling class frames them as terrorists, because their existence alone threatens the power structure.
š The Final Summoning: Grooming for Suicide
From birth, summoners and the working class of Spira are taught that the summoner's deaths are necessary "for the greater good." Their sacrifice is celebrated, not questioned.
If you die working, thatās just life.
If you struggle to survive, it builds character.
If you suffer, itās because of your own failingsānot the system.
This mirrors how capitalism convinces workers that suffering is noble, while the ruling class sits comfortably, demanding more sacrifices.
š„ Dismantling Yevon: A Full-Scale Revolution
The partyās fight against Yevon is not just about defeating Sināitās about overthrowing an entire power structure.
They expose the Churchās lies.
They dismantle Yevonās authority.
They destroy Sin WITHOUT a summonerās sacrifice.
They end the cycle of oppressionāpermanently.
This is not just a battle against a big evil boss. This is a full-scale revolution that topples an entire system.
š„ Conclusion: Final Fantasy X as a Revolutionary Blueprint
Final Fantasy X is not just about fighting monsters. Itās a lesson in radicalization, class consciousness, and direct action. Itās about:
How ruling classes use fear to maintain control.
How those in power create artificial cycles of suffering to justify their existence.
How revolutionary change requires rejecting not just the leaders, but the entire system upholding them.
Resistance is messy, painful, and often met with hostilityābut it is still necessary.
Ultimately: Itās a story of how to wake up, how to fight back, and how to build something better.
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It's 1000 degrees outside. Horse owners are putting out signs asking their neighbors, with varying degrees of politeness, not to stress their animals to death making more noise in five hours of darkness than the British and Continental Armies made in five years of war. I am arming myself with summer-y beers and venturing into my yearly rewatch of The Patriot before my yearly sleepless night of thinking James Wilkins had the right idea when he locked his neighbors up in their church and set it ablaze. The horse-killing-est time of year is upon us once again!
This year, I want to take a break from writing about imperialist farmer and deadbeat dad Benjamin Martin and give due attention to the real main character: William Tavington. I know a lot of people share that opinion, but often when I read their interpretations of this character, I find we agree on little else. There are basically two categories of The Patriot enjoyers: men who want to be Benjamin Martin and women who want to fuck William Tavington. I'm neither, and my four years of writing meta and fic for this fandom have been a constant search for others like me, and we are few and far between.
All readers (or viewers) bring their own desires and experiences to their interpretation of any work. There is whole school of literary criticism, reader-response theory, centered around this phenomenon. A compelling case can be made that the reader/viewer's subjective experience matters as much if not more than the writer/director's intention in interpretation of a text. And I don't blame women for taking something for themselves from a film that is giving them absolutely nothing on purpose. But the main form of engagement with The Patriot that I see on this site not only centers one character but one scene that is not particularly revealing about him. He doesn't speak; he's fighting for his life. And I can see the appeal for an audience that wants nothing more than to map its own fantasies onto an aesthetically appealing blank slate. In every other scene, however, Tavington is a sassy, over the top, speech-making murderer of surrendering wounded soldiers, women, and children. The only way he could be more of a Disney villain would be for him to burst into song!
And like many classic Disney villains, Tavington is as queer as the July sun is hot.
I've hesitated to put my thoughts about this into a single formal argument because I've never seen anyone who reads him as straight do the same thing. Even though no one has put this pressure on me in relation to The Patriot, those who interpret characters whose sexualities are not obvious plot points as queer are often held to a higher standard of "proof" than those who read them as straight. In the case of straight Tavington, though, the proof of his sexuality is not in the pudding but in the baker (or stir-er if they're American). His scenes where women are present at all can easily be counted on the fingers of one hand. Only one of these women (Anne Howard) ever speaks to him, and Tavington completely ignores her. I have seen the argument that Tavington's lack of encounters with women is owing to the film's near exclusive focus on conflicts and comradery between men, and I would buy that if Tavington's willingness to target civilians was not one of his most character-defining features. By his second scene he's harassed the populace enough for them to have given him a nickname, and in the main action of the film he burns eight militamen's homes and murders their wives and children. His conversations with General Cornwallis suggest that he is trying unsuccessfully to get information from the populace even between these scenes while forbidden his preferred tactics. That Tavington does not attempt to seduce or sexually menace Patriot women in canon as he does in So Many fics on Ao3 is hardly because he lacks opportunity.
Obviously, lack of interest in women is not inherently queer; what makes Tavington readable as such is his coding. The clearest example of this comes from a scene titled "The Heart of a Villain" neither included in the theatrical release nor added back in the extended edition. It is available in the bonus features for DVD releases of both theatrical and extended cuts and on YouTube. In it, Tavington and Captain Wilkins are taking a break from interrogating a militia deserter. Tavington is admiring the "beautiful country" while examining a purple flower which he then brings into the house. The color purple has a longstanding connection to queer people of all genders in popular culture, as do flowers in general with gay men. Furthermore, why does Tavington need company for this break, and why they are concealed from the rest of the British soldiers outside? The tall stalks they are hiding in are corn. Cornholing is an American slang term for anal sex. Roland Emmerich is not a subtle director at the best of times, and this scene is no exception.
Even if we only consider the most accessible version of canon, Tavington's relationships with men on his own side go beyond professional norms. While he is obsequious towards General Cornwallis early on, he is later able to use Cornwallis's growing frustration with the militia to convince him to allow the use of brutal tactics his superior had previously forbidden. He has to use a light touch with his superior since he lacks power in that exchange, but when Wilkins hesitates to burn his neighbors inside their church, he uses the same strategy of seduction and reassurance that had worked on Cornwallis. Wilkins is not only under Tavington's command but surrounded by his fellow dragoons who never hesitate to follow orders. Tavington does not need to charm him; that's just the way Tavington is.
Finally, we have Tavington's obsession with Benjamin Martin, and the film makes it very clear that is the man he's after, not just victory and advancement. In the final battle, after he attempts to warn his men about the trap, Tavington does not even seem to notice that his side is losing. He only leads them into this trap because he sees Martin and cannot resist charging, with his whole regiment behind him, in pursuit. If Martin were any other enemy, Tavington would have killed him as efficiently as any other, and the end of the film would be much more satisfying. Instead, his desire for connection with Martin is so powerful that it leads to his death. And yet, somehow, slash fans are sleeping on this ship. One of the greatest evils of patriotism, I have no doubt!
None of this is to say people shouldn't create or enjoy canon divergent versions of Tavington. I have certainly done both. Nor am I saying the kind of formalist criticism that focuses on plot, dialogue, images and tropes in the text is morally superior to reader response's subjective focus on the viewer's relationship with the text. I just can imagine how disappointed people introduced to Tavington by fandom must be when they see him in context given how wildly different he is in most fanworks. And it's a shame because he is the best part of the story and for reasons that are actually present within it.
Forge and Sage in X-Force (2024) - issues #4 and #5
Sage walks out on Forge. Tells him to go fuck himself and quits on his ass.
And precisely because I ship them, I squealed with joy.
It makes sense, I promise.
Issues #4 and #5 are very action-packed, so there isn't time for Forge/Sage moments in the way there was in previous issues. The relationship just simmers in the background. Until it boils over.
Forge sacrifices Surge for the sake of the mission. He even personally zaps her to hasten the proceedings, because he's efficient like that. Ignores Sage's pleas to stop.
[Everyone, I give you: Blorbo! *slow clap*]
The team is left horrified and angry, obviously.
Betsy's glare in particular takes us back to the moment in issue #4 when she'd confronted Forge about his nebulous talk.
In that moment it was Sage who had attempted to restore the peace, reminding the reader that she was the one in Forge's corner, the one willing to give him the benefit of the doubt.
But now, with Nori dead and Forge so clearly responsible, it's Sage who snaps, not Betsy. Why? Because to her, Forge's behaviour isn't just a callous decision, it's a personal betrayal. She'd started a partnership with him, built the team with him, had become his second in commandāall of which is a big deal for someone as guarded as Tessa āand he goes and does that? No wonder she takes it harder than everyone else.
I also feel like there is something to say about the inclusion of Tempestāan alt-version of Storm who turns up at the end of issue #4āto this story. Not only does this woman die for Forge's mission minutes before Surge, but she also reveals that the Forge from her own reality abandoned her and their love child.
[The Jerry Springer-ness of it cracks me up. Also love the idea that these two are a thing across universes.]
It might just be bit of fun on the writer's part, but Tempest definitely appears at the right moment to remind Sage that Nori's demise isn't a freak accidentāForge does tend to destroy the lives of the women close to him. She already knows this, being a friend of 616 Storm, but with these two examples right in front of her face, she really can't ignore the fact. Whether you're Forge's friend (reminder that he and Surge had a mentor/mentee relationship for a while) or his lover, you're all the more likely to end up as collateral damage to whatever his tangled and toxic brain has come up with. Especially now, when his newly-enhanced power is so unpredictable.
And what has the book established issue after issue? Sage and Forge have become close. Sage knows this, of course she does. Emotions might not be her forte (or so people believe anyway), but if there's one thing my girl has, it's insight. So there might be a bit of self-preservation in her decision to go as well.
In any case, one thing is for sure: she's hurt. She can't even stick around for the sake of saving the world, like the others do. She needs Forge out of her sight, right now. So she leaves, tears of rage streaming down her face.
And that, my friends, is kind of a prerequisite to becoming Forge Girlfriend Materialā¢. I've seen the 'woman trusts Forge and gets burnt' scenario twice before, and I know where it leads: irresistible and tormented romantic entanglement. Our Tessa is now irreparably screwed, and there is no escape. (Unless you cancel the bloody book. Yeah, that'll do it, you effin bastards.)
And issue #6 seals the deal. Confirms this theory on many levels. Let's talk about it next time.
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Dustin's insecurity/loneliness is really showing in s2
I've always thought of Dustin's season 1 line 'I know Lucas is your best friend and it's okay, Mike, I get it' as the biggest example of how he feels lonely and insecure despite his friendships...
But idk how I overlooked this line from s2
Lucas and Dustin both messed up, Dustin by lying about Dart and Lucas by telling Max about the Upside Down - and they argued about that! But Dustin is quick to back down, and goes so far as to suggest Max replace him.
Bearing in mind they've only known Max for a few days at this point, and it's already been established that there isn't a set number of places available in the Party since El was added after s1, it's glaringly obvious that Dustin feels replaceable.
(Also, this isn't just an offhand, joking comment to act as a peace offering. By Dustin's tone and the fact he's looking down, avoiding eye contact with Lucas, you can tell this is a genuine worry of his.)
Lucas doesn't pick up on the strangeness of this offer, though, since he's distracted by the 'girlfriend' comment, and it goes unnoticed.