#tea vent

Do you ever get that feeling when you can’t talk about your emotions because everyone around you has been really messed up before and if you speak about messed up stuff then it’ll trigger them and you’ll have to ignore you feelings till you can help them then have to deal with the feelings alone because they’re still recovering from the previous bad feelings and you don’t wanna bother them? And you bottle them up but you know that it’s v bad to bottle them up but what else are you suppoused to do?? Keep a fucking diary??? Find friends that can help you with your emotions???? Or will you just stop lying for 4.92 seconds to speak up????? Or will you just get over your fear of being stood up against and brushed off afterwards?????? Or will you just stop being an over-emotional BITCH for 3.69 seconds to say a coherent sentence about your emotions??????? Or just ask to take a break from online activities for 2.57 seconds that take away mental and emotional energy???????? Stop worrying about what others think of you and try to do your best which eventually burns you out then you have a stack of impossible expectations for you to get to????????? Or will you just fucking die but you know you can’t because too many people care about you and too many people give a shit about you to be considered to have any kind of mental illness??????????

no because phone/screen addiction is so fucked up. I can't just fucking throw away my phone as tempting as it sounds because as much as I hate to admit it it's how I connect to my friends and family. and it's not as simple as exchanging it for a flip phone which is also a recurring thought since many of my friends only interact through social medias.