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Rewatching Spy x Family and realizing how far they've come 😭

so I watched the Spy x Family movie Code: White and then after that I rewatched the first episode of SxF and was like wow, Twilight you've really come a long way. Like, he used to be awkward around Anya and didn't know what to do in episode 1 where he cares about the mission more. Comparing that to the movie, you can definitely see that he cares about his family more than the mission.

In the movie you can see that he's definitely disappointed when Handler told him that someone will replace him in Operation Strix. Because if it fails, the family cover will no longer be needed. He wanted to convince the HQ that the Operation Strix is showing progress. Idk about yall but I think it felt like that's just him subconsciously needing a reason to keep his family, to convince himself this could last a little longer. Because when the mission ends, so does the excuse to keep the family. Because he's a spy.

Or perhaps what he's really subconsciously afraid of is what happens when he no longer needs a cover to stay.

Watching the contrast between the first episode and the recent episodes / movie of SxF made me realized that somewhere along the line, Loid started acting like a real father. Cause man went from "this is for the mission" to "standing up for his daughter's Meremere and buying his wife a lipstick just because Yor mentioned that she probably has an allergic reaction to her current lipstick" 😭

And I think if Twilight from episode one when he adopted Anya meets himself from the recent episodes, I'd say he'll judge himself for getting sloppy. Like, "wow, I've really lost my edge" because Twilight was once a man who didn't believe in marriage, family and all that because he had abandoned those things the moment he took the code name Twilight. And seeing him now, he's already attached without him knowing, much softer, more caring.

What used to be strangers playing pretend-family just for the sake of the mission, watching them now, it doesn't feel like a mission anymore. Just a family slowly learning how to be one. Now I really get why people are saying that Twilight has become the mask and Loid Forger became the person. Because Twilight was supposed to be the real one, but now he started to become more comfortable with his life as Loid Forger.

Also the irony of his name... As Twilight, a spy, he spent his life forging fake identities, documents, even lives. He also forged Loid Forger. Yet Loid Forger has become the identity that stopped feeling fake... At least "for the sake of the mission". 😏