Like I remember growing up as my little bisexual sex and being legitimately excited seeing gay villains becoming sorta common across media. Now it's not even a big deal. Villains just kinda kiss on same sex people all the time. It's great. I love this. We need villains are just like "I want to blow up the puppy orphanage because of I'm so terrible and evil and as a side note mwahahahahaha. Also I'm trans but that's not really related to the other stuff I just felt I'd mention it."

Anyywayyy!!!! Welp, here it is! So basically, if you get 20000$ everyday, would you agree to live with 4 historical figures for the REST OF YOUR LIFE? Oh, they need to be born pre-1887, it needs to be balanced aka 2 males, 2 females, ooh! And they need to be famous enough to be named by like 100000 people but that's such a loose number so we'll scrap that.

But yeah, my answer was obv HELL YES! And so I drafted my dream team after extensive research!

INTRODUCING!!! Nikola Tesla, the genius, and possibly my tutor. Ooh! he'll come up with inventions or whatever, and then Madam C.J. Walker will swoop in, and take care of the business aspect! Jane Austin will sit with me, one brow raised, as she forces structure into my chaotic mess of a multiverse, teaching me the importance of fixing plot bunnies, while Chopin will sigh, and try not to slam his head against the wall as he listens to my horrible butchery of his grand Ballade in G Minor! But that's fine cuz he's a relatively gentle teacher! (I think...)

I still need to keep working on brushing my teeth. I still use kid's watermelon toothpaste, because mint literally makes me feel sick. But that's just something personal, I guess. Also, I'm still crossing my ring finger and my pinkie whenever I type. It's awful.

When I was about to turn 30 I couldn’t understand why people freaked out so bad. You’re only as old as you feel, I didn’t feel that old. My body hurt, but I stuffed the pain away and kept going. I had two kids to take care of. Their health and wellbeing was my top priority. I know now that you have to take care of you, it’ll be easier to take care of them if you do… a lesson learned too late and sadly the lesson my children didn’t know either. They learned through watching me that you put your health in the background and take care of the kids first. I’ve tried telling them that it’s the wrong way and will only lead to pain. My 32 year old daughter is starting to figure that out… because her body is telling her off. Her doctor gently shook a finger and said she had to take care of herself. It went to deaf ears in sure.

So whenI was about to turn 30, I told my husband at the time and my kids that 30 was just a number and not a big deal. They made it a big deal, by throwing me a party. My husband at the time had taken the kids shopping (we lived in Germany and Americans aren’t really liked there somedays). He swore he only took one at a time so he could keep a better eye on them. But they picked the store and the item lol one of them got me this beautiful dragon you hang on the wall that holds a letter opener, my youngest. My eldest, and I can’t say I’m too surprised, got me this beautiful dagger. There’s no way to adequately describe this dagger, not that I can think of right off hand.

Anyway! 😂 Tangent! So, it wasn’t a big deal to me. Same when I turned 40. The kids again threw me a birthday party with my sister’s help. I have no memory of that party or the gifts sadly. I’m pretty sure that was around the year of my “incident” and one day I might write about that day… or days? 🤷🏻‍♀️

And now… now we’re coming upon my 50th and while it’s still just a number, I’m feeling that age plus about 20-30 more depending on the day. I think the best present this year is going to be paying off my affirm enough for me to buy a peloton and the radio frequency ablation procedure. I have to get my legs in shape, they aren’t used to being able to move like they did when I had the nerve block. And omg, if the rfa works like the nerve block did. I’ll be the happiest woman on earth. I’ll get my house unpack. Get it setup the way I want it. The hamster cage finally setup and finally be able to get another hamster 💕

Hamsters are the perfect pet for someone who isn’t a cat person (sue me, I’m allergic). For someone who believes it’s cruel to leave a dog alone in the house for over 9 hours a day and have no yard to let him go play in. So, it’s cruel to have a dog right now. I’m not up for a pet snake… I want my daughters to come visit. I’m not getting a ferret or a rabbit, thanks but no thanks. I thought about a rat original but couldn’t find anybody selling them. And birds? Don’t get me started on birds, I’m not big on some birds lol besides, my baby sister has enough birds for the family, my mom and oldest sister are the second runner up on the owning birds scale and my awesome sister in law has the only bird I’d bring home and that’s the only bird she owns, he was her fathers bird before her dad passed way. It’s an awesome bird and she’s my favorite sister in law (even if I had more than one brother, she’d be my favorite)… well, my baby sister does too but they’re all big birds… I apparently don’t like little birds or little dogs 😂

…. I’m not sure how my conversation got away with me. Ahh… yes, hamsters as pets. I looked at lots of pets before deciding on the hamster. And I chose a pet because my kids were threatening to buy me a dog… then I had a big yard, just no fence. Still think the tenants should have split the cost of an invisible fence for the animals. But apparently I’m ridiculous. 🤷🏻‍♀️ doesn’t matter now.